Wednesday, December 31, 2003

just wanted to say..... HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! be safe everyone, don't drink and drive!! *mwah*

Monday, December 29, 2003

look what i got! isn't she so pretty.... so yay, i got it! whooo hoooo! *dances in circles* =) that was the longest two months in my life!! j/k now i must accessorize!

Sunday, December 28, 2003

vacation all i ever wanted, vacation had to get away.... we were home for a week!! and this is what we did.... *click* *click*

Wednesday, December 24, 2003

merry christmas eve!!! have you finished your shopping yet? i have!! so i'm wrapping! happy holidays everyone! be safe out there!!! *mwah*

Friday, December 19, 2003

birthday greetings...... i wish i had the ability to be in two places at once, since i can't i'd like to wish two of my most beautiful friends a most happy happy birthday. so.......... happy birthday to mah girly gen!!!! and happy birthday phil!!! *mwah* & *hug* hope you guys have a most beautiful day! i'm taking a half day today just for you guys!!!! =D

Sunday, December 14, 2003

lions and tigers and bears...oh my! so there wasn't a whole lotta lions (just that lazy one), no tigers or bears....but they had this bad boy! click here for more! *rawrrrrr*

Thursday, December 11, 2003

christmas partayyyyyyyyy yay, today's our party! heeheh i'm gonna get drunk starting at 1:00, gorge on pasta & yummy tasties. food and drinks on the firm. =) whoooo hooooo! happy holidays to one and all! i so need a drink right now. =)

Tuesday, December 09, 2003

going down hard? i think not. say what you will, give me all your excuses...i don't care, lakes rule all!!!! *fist in air* especially the mail man. *YUM* my new favorite. =) i can't wait for them to play the warriors again....we're so there! =)

Thursday, December 04, 2003

JANUARY: Ambitious and serious. Loves to teach and be taught. Always looking at people's flaws and weaknesses. Likes to criticize. Hardworking and productive. Smart, neat and organized. Sensitive and has deep thoughts. Knows how to make others happy. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Rather reserved Highly attentive. Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds. Romantic but has difficulties expressing love. Loves children. Loyal. Has great social abilities yet easily jealous. Very Stubborn and money cautious. * * * * * * * * * heh, this is so very true....

Tuesday, December 02, 2003

Santa is Quitting? T'was the night before Christmas--Old Santa was pissed. He cussed out the elves and threw down his list. Miserable little brats, ungrateful little jerks. I have a good mind to scrap the whole works! I've busted my ass for damn near a year, Instead of "Thanks Santa"--what do I hear? The old lady bitches cause I work late at night. The elves want more money--the reindeer all fight. Rudolph got drunk and goosed all the maids. Donner is pregnant and Vixen has AIDS. And just when I thought that things would get better, Those assholes from the IRS sent me a letter. They say I owe taxes--if that ain't damn funny. Who the hell ever sent Santa Claus any money? And the kids these days--they all are the pits. They want the impossible--those mean little shits. I spent a whole year making wagons and sleds, Assembling dolls...their arms, legs and heads. I made a ton of yo yo's--NO request for them. They want computers and robots...they think I'm IBM! Flying through the air...dodging the trees, Falling down chimneys and skinning my knees. I'm quitting this job...there's just no enjoyment. I'll sit on my fat ass and draw unemployment. There's no Christmas this year now you know the reason, I found me a blonde. I'm going SOUTH for the season!
what would you do? Have you ever wondered which hurts the most? Saying something and wishing you hadn't?, or Saying nothing and wishing you had? I guess the most important things are the hardest things to say. Don't be afraid to tell someone you love them. If you do, they might break your heart....if you don't, you might break theirs. Have u ever decided not 2 become a couple because you were so afraid of losing what you already had with that person? Your heart decides whom it likes and whom it doesn't. You can't tell your heart what to do. It does it on its own........when you least suspect it, or even when you don't want it to. Have you ever wanted to love someone with everything you had, but that other person was too afraid to let you? Too many of us stay walled up because we are too afraid to care too much...for fear that the other person does not care as much, or even at all. Have you ever denied your feelings for someone because your fear of rejection was too hard to handle? We tell lies when we are afraid... afraid of what we don't know, afraid of what others will think, afraid of what will be found out about us. But every time we tell a lie, the thing we fear grows stronger. Life is all about risks and it requires you to jump. Don't be a person who has to look back and wonder what they would have done, or could have had. *What would you do if every time you fell in love you had to say good-bye? *What would you do if every time you wanted someone they would never be there? *What would you do if your best friend died tomorrow and you never got to tell them how you felt? (even if it is that you don't care anymore) *What would you do if you loved someone more than ever and you couldn't have them? *What would you do if you never got the chance to say I am friends with all of my family and they know I love them? *People live, but people die. I want to tell you that you are a friend. If you died tomorrow (God Forbid) you would be in my heart. Would I be in yours? If you care about me as much as I care about you, you will send this back You might be best friends one year, pretty good friends the next year, don't talk that often the next, and don't want to talk at all the year after that. So, I just wanted to say, even if I never talk to you again in my life, you are special to me and you have made a difference in my life, I look up to you, respect you, truly cherish you, most of all I CARE about friends. *mwah*

Wednesday, November 26, 2003

T'was The Nite Of Thanksgiving Twas the night of Thanksgiving, but I just couldn't sleep I tried counting backwards, I tried counting sheep. The leftovers beckoned -- the dark meat and white, But I fought the temptation with all of my might! Tossing and turning with anticipation The thought of a snack became infatuation. So, I raced to the kitchen, flung open the door And gazed at the fridge, full of goodies galore. I gobbled up turkey and buttered potatoes, Pickles and carrots, beans and tomatoes. I felt myself swelling so plump and so round, Til all of a sudden, I rose off the ground. I crashed through the ceiling, floating into the sky with a mouthful of pudding and a handful of pie. But, I managed to yell as I soared past the trees.... Happy eating to all--pass the cranberries, please. May your stuffing be tasty, may your turkey be plump. May your potatoes 'n gravy have nary a lump, May your yams be delicious, may your pies take the prize, May your Thanksgiving dinner stay OFF OF YOUR THIGHS.

Monday, November 24, 2003

I Think This Applies To You A good woman is proud of herself. She respects herself and others. She is aware of who she is. She neither seeks definition from the person she is with, nor does she expect them to read her mind. She is quite capable of articulating her needs. A good woman is hopeful. She is strong enough to make all her dreams come true. She knows love, therefore she gives love. She recognizes that her love has great value and must be reciprocated. If her love is taken for granted, it soon disappears. A good woman has a dash of inspiration, a dabble of endurance. She knows that she will, at times, have to inspire others to reach the potential God gave them. A good woman knows her past, understands her present and moves toward the future. A good woman knows God. She knows that with God the world is her playground, but without God she will just be played. A good woman does not live in fear of the future because of her past. Instead, she understands that her life experiences are merely lessons, meant to bring her closer to self knowledge and unconditional self love. Girl Smile.....YOU KNOW YOU HAVE IT GOING ON! ......So Keep ON Keeping On. * * * * * * * * * i might have posted this up here before...but i don't care -- i'm passing it on. =)

Sunday, November 23, 2003

something nice to think about... four more days....and i'm home! *dance in circles* i can't wait. too bad 'rents are gonna be in the pinas. ahhhh, it's cool...t-day schedule is already set. can't wait, i so can't wait.

Friday, November 21, 2003

things to keep in mind... Maybe we are meant to meet the wrong people before meeting the right one so that when we finally meet the right person, we will know how to be grateful for that gift. Maybe when the door of happiness closes, another opens, but often times we look so long at the closed door that we don't see the one which has been opened for us. Maybe the best kind of friend is the kind you can sit on a porch and swing with, never say a word, and then walk away feeling like it was the best conversation you've ever had. Maybe it is true that we don't know what we have got until we lose it, but it is also true that we don't know what we have been missing until it arrives. Giving someone all your love is never an assurance that they will love you back. Don't expect love in return; just wait for it to grow in their heart; but if it does not, be content it grew in yours. It takes only a minute to get a crush on someone, an hour to like someone, and a day to love someone, but it takes a lifetime to forget someone. Don't go for looks; they can deceive. Don't go for wealth; even that fades away. Go for someone who makes you smile because it takes only a smile to make a dark day seem bright. Find the one that makes your heart smile. There are moments in life when you miss someone so much that you just want to pick them from your dreams and hug them for real. Dream what you want to dream; go where you want to go; be what you want to be, because you have only one life and one chance to do all the things you want to do. May you have enough happiness to make you sweet, enough trials to make you strong, enough sorrow to keep you human, enough hope to make you happy. Always put yourself in others shoes. If you feel that it hurts you, it probably hurts the other person, too. The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best of everything; they just make the most of everything that comes along their way. Happiness lies for those who cry, those who hurt, those who have searched, and those who have tried, for only they can appreciate the importance of people who have touched their lives. Love begins with a smile, grows with a kiss and ends with a tear. The brightest future will always be based on a forgotten past, you can�t go on well in life until you let go of your past failures and heartaches. When you were born, you were crying and everyone around you was smiling. Live your life so that when you die, you are the one who is smiling and everyone around you is crying. *mwah*
it's that time again...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ONE OF THE BESTEST BROTHERS IN THE WORLD!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY NOEL!!! *mwah*

Thursday, November 20, 2003

the little things... in a conversation i had with a friend via im then on the phone we were talking about all the little things. little things you ask? let me explain... i was first trying to get his opinion on what he thought of something (going about it in a roundabout way of course), and i didn't exactly get the reaction i was going for. so i explained myself by bringing up something totally different (yet kinda related to what i was getting at). it's like the first drag of a cig after you've had a bad day...or when you find out someone appreciates some little things you do, and let's you know they appreciate that. or when someone gives you something that you talked about a long time ago, remembered about it, got it (or already had it) and eventually gives it to you. or when someone asks you how your day went, and really listened to you. a random call, just to say hi (or a text). or the first kiss, a gentle touch, or kind words when you're feeling like shit. those are the little things that i like so much, and appreciate daily. after explaining myself he changed his answer and told me that yeah, he would like and appreciate that too. you see, it's ALL ABOUT the little things. they are the most important. remember that.

Tuesday, November 18, 2003

changes.... as some of you may have noticed, i've been changing things here and there...along with the color scheme (it reminds me of vanilla bean ice cream & strawberry toppings!!). i got some of the my latest update ideas from mike and bumblebootie. i thought they looked cool so i kinda mixed it up and added a little. thanks guys! it gives me more of an 'identity' if you will. so yeah, along with the changes to the blog...i've been having a lot of life changes. for once...I'M OUT OF DEBT!! completely! no credit card debt, and i don't owe my bro anything for my car anymore. so ya'll know what that means. full speed ahead on school! i'm gonna take the next step and prep for and get the bestest GRE score i can possibly get. then apply to every single school i can apply to [location doesn't matter!!]. ahhh, life right now, at this moment....is GOOD. once i get the GRE out of the way and i'm in school, then i can take on other things...but for now, i'm REALLY happy. ahhhh, it's good to be happy ain't it? and the best thing about it is....i have the greatest friends that believe in me. actually, had a great talk with shan tonight...but that's another topic for another night. so with all that, i shall bid you adieu. *MWAH*

Monday, November 17, 2003

Schwarzenegger Set to Take Office Mon Nov 17, 3:07 AM ET By TOM CHORNEAU, Associated Press Writer SACRAMENTO, Calif. - In a departure from recent inaugurations, there will be no big parties and no gala balls after Arnold Schwarzenegger (news - web sites) takes the oath of office as California's 38th governor. Bitterness over the divisive recall vote and the state's fiscal troubles have put a damper on livelier festivities � although plenty of celebrities promised to be on hand. The night before the Austrian-born actor was to take the oath, stars such as Rob Lowe, Rob Reiner and Tom Arnold were seen around town, and former U.S. Secretary of State George Shultz was among a group of transition advisers who met with the governor-elect. Even Schwarzenegger's relatives added a bit of glamour. Meeting with the transition team Sunday, Schwarzenegger took time out to thank his mother-in-law, Eunice Shriver, the sister of the late President Kennedy. Eunice Shriver's daughter, Maria Shriver, is married to Schwarzenegger. "I want to thank my mother-in-law who has come out so many times since I announced my candidacy," he said. "Campaigning with me, driving with the bus up and down, being out there, talking and speaking." Eunice Shriver had said that even President Kennedy would have voted for the Republican, Schwarzenegger said, but then he paused and added with a laugh, "I'm just making that up." Schwarzenegger, elected last month at the same time Democratic Gov. Gray Davis (news - web sites) was recalled, was scheduled to be sworn in Monday during an hourlong ceremony on the steps of the state Capitol. About 7,500 guests were invited to attend. Schwarzenegger's wife, Maria Shriver, was expected to hold the Bible while California Supreme Court Chief Justice Ronald George administered the oath. Aides said that Schwarzenegger planned a brief speech. Later in the day he was to attend three events: a luncheon inside the Capitol rotunda for state and federal officials, a private family gathering across the street and an invitation-only reception sponsored by the state Chamber of Commerce (news - web sites). But Schwarzenegger also planned to get to work quickly. He was scheduled to return to the Capitol by mid-afternoon to start the business of running California's government, a job that became more daunting over the weekend when Schwarzenegger's chief financial deputy pegged the state budget deficit at $25 billion � far more than other estimates. First on Schwarzenegger's to-do list may be his promise to issue a first-day-in-office executive order repealing the increase in the car tax. Schwarzenegger also has said he will call the Legislature back into session, probably Tuesday, to deal with a range of issues including midyear budget cuts, reform of the state's worker compensation system and a repeal of a new law that lets undocumented workers get driver's licenses. Mindful of the bitterness that still surrounds the first transfer of power after the recall, not to mention the state's trouble with red ink, the Schwarzenegger team planned no black-tie balls, a departure from some past California inaugurations. In 1995, Natalie Cole sang at then-Gov. Pete Wilson's inaugural gala. The 1999 inaugural for Davis included a $3.7 million event featuring Lionel Richie, Kenny G and a reading by "Happy Days" actor Henry Winkler. Davis toned down his second inaugural, held earlier this year amid the state's fiscal crisis, to a casual party at an auditorium with the swing band Big Bad Voodoo Daddy entertaining. This time, the inauguration promises to be well documented. Requests for press credentials came from TV crews and print journalists around the globe � including Japan, Australia, France, Germany, the United Kingdom and, of course, Schwarzenegger's native Austria. Nearly 650 journalists were set to cover the swearing-in � as many as might cover a presidential inauguration. "Sacramento has never seen anything like this before � it is astonishing," said Sherry Bebitch Jeffe, a political scientist at the University of Southern California. "There has never been this kind of intense media attention on the governor at anytime in the state." http://story.news.yahoo.com * * * * * * * * * * * we shall see now. won't we....

Sunday, November 16, 2003

random quote... The perfect love affair is one which is conducted entirely by post. -- George Bernard Shaw
Your Weekly Horoscope for Nov 17 to 23 Dear Eileen Joy, You will certainly get more than a few revelations over the course of this week, mainly because of all the planetary activity going on in the 'mystical' and 'karmic' sector of your chart. For some time now, the cosmos has been introducing you to new ways to understand and perceive what is going on in your world. Your vision is being expanded to encompass the spiritual and the physical as one holistic event, rather than the two being split apart. The solar Eclipse in Sagittarius is going to make you even more aware of the subtle energies that govern your world, and direct the course of events, sometimes without you even being aware of it. This is why you need to stay calm and centered, if certain deep-seated issues in your life suddenly raise their heads. It is time to face them fearlessly, and to find out just why they have posed such a problem. This may also cause you to feel unsure of yourself, and uncertain as to your next steps along the path. But as everything begins to settle, you too will begin to feel so much more positive about the way things seem to be panning out. A new start will become very evident. Best wishes for today, from the astrologers of Yahoo-Astrocenter * * * * * * * * very, very interesting....
You Won't Believe What Happens at Age 30 The new age of adulthood: 30. Our extended adolescence has really, well, extended. But according to Josh Albertson, Lockhart Steele, and Jonathan Van Gieson, authors of the new "Book of Ages 30," life begins at 30. Thirty is cool. Party on, dude! That should be good news to the 3,789,800 Americans who will turn 30 this year. Unlike their parents, today's thirtysomethings think of this milestone as a new beginning and not an end. Priorities shift. New things become important. Uh oh. You're adulthood is showing. "When we started writing this book, I really didn't feel like there was a whole lot of buzz about being 30," Albertson told the Milwaukee Journal Sentinel. "Now there is a lot of talk of 30 being the new 21. People are looking at it as the beginning of adulthood. I think people put off growing up for longer. Sometimes people look up when they're 30 and sort of wonder where they are and what they've done." So who are America's thirtysomethings and what do they have to look forward to? "Book of Ages 30" has an interesting take on it: How Old IS 30? If you're 30, you're old--specifically, you're older than 42 percent of all Americans. But you're not alone. Fifteen percent of Americans are also in their 30s. The Good, the Bad, and the Ugly of Being 30 If you're 30, you've already lost 10 percent of your muscle mass. You're likely to be in debt to the tune of $20,000. But the good news is that you're also likely to be having sex 2.24 times a week. Sex While 81 percent of women and 71 percent of men have been married by their early 30s, there are plenty who are still virgins after their 30th birthday: 1 in 33 men and 1 in 25 women. Your Good Looks Men at 30 are on average 5' 10.2" tall and weigh 174 pounds, while 30-year-old women are 5' 4.6" tall and weigh 130 pounds. Let's Talk Money The median income for 30-year-old men is $30,510, while the median income for 30-year-old women is $21,473. On average, 30 year olds have held 7.5 jobs. They have a 24 percent chance of being promoted in the next year. Career Peaks and Valleys J.K. Rowling published the first volume in the "Harry Potter" series just before she turned 32. By 30, Harrison Ford went from being a carpenter to an actor in "American Graffiti," and back to being a carpenter. Remember Mr. T? At age 30, in case you wondered, he was about to play the villain in "Rocky III." When they were 30, no one other than their family and friends knew who Oprah Winfrey or Jane Austen were. No More Naps You're less likely to fall asleep at your desk than those young twentysomething whippersnappers down the hallway. Just over half of 18- to 29-year-olds report substantial daytime sleepiness, compared with 33 percent of the over-30 crowd. Don't Shoot! Nearly half, 45 percent, of all thirtysomethings own a firearm. In fact, more people in their 30s own firearms than do people in any other decade of their lives. click here for the article * * * * * * * * interesting read...don't ya think? thanks manong merrick! =)

Saturday, November 15, 2003

random quotes i am the lord of the living room, the king of the kingdom... i am...drunk. we meet again. truth? i care about the job, of course. but mostly...i want to be inspired. some dudes might have the calm, but they'll never have the qualm, it means love, respect, community, and the dollars too... the entire package, the qualm. it's a risk... you bet on me, like i bet on you. do you love her? i don't know. what do you mean you don't know? you know when you know. ...i didn't shoplift the puti, fine. i shoplifted the puti. maybe you all are correct, maybe men are the enemy, but i still love the enemy. hello, hello? i'm looking for my wife. wait, okay, okay, this is where it has to happen then this is where it has to happen. i'm not letting you get rid of me, how about that? this used to be my specialty, you know, i was good in the living room, they would send me in there, and i'd do it alone, now i just... but tonight, our little project, our company, had a very big night, a very, very big night. but it wasn't complete, wasn't nearly close to being in the same vicinity as complete, because i couldn't share it with you, i couldn't hear your voice, or laugh about it with you, i miss, i miss my wife. we live in a cynical world... a cynical world. and we work in a world of tough competitors, i love you, you complete me... i'm just.... shut up, just shut up... you had me at hello... you had me at hello. you are my ambassador of qualm. hey, i don't have all the answers. in life (to be honest) i've failed as much as i've succeeded. but i love my wife, i love my life, and i wish you my kind of success. * * * * * * * * i love that movie.

Thursday, November 13, 2003

Study: Fellatio may significantly decrease the risk of breast cancer in women Thursday, October 2, 2003 Posted: 9:19 AM EDT (1319 GMT) (AP) -- Women who perform the act of fellatio and swallow semen on a regular basis, one to two times a week, may reduce their risk of breast cancer by up to 40 percent, a North Carolina State University study found. Doctors had never suspected a link between the act of fellatio and breast cancer, but new research being performed at North Carolina State University is starting to suggest that there could be an important link between the two. In a study of over 15,000 women suspected of having performed regular fellatio and swallowed the ejaculatory fluid, over the past ten years, the researchers found that those actually having performed the act regularly, one to two times a week, had a lower occurrence of breast cancer than those who had not. There was no increased risk, however, for those who did not regularly perform. "I think it removes the last shade of doubt that fellatio is actually a healthy act," said Dr. A.J. Kramer of Johns Hopkins School of Medicine, who was not involved in the research. "I am surprised by these findings, but am also excited that the researchers may have discovered a relatively easy way to lower the occurrence of breast cancer in women." The University researchers stressed that, though breast cancer is relatively uncommon, any steps taken to reduce the risk would be a wise decision. "Only with regular occurrence will your chances be reduced, so I encourage all women out there to make fellatio an important part of their daily routine," said Dr. Helena Shifteer, one of the researchers at the University. "Since the emergence of the research, I try to fellate at least once every other night to reduce my chances." The study is reported in Friday's Journal of Medical Research. In 1991, 43,582 women died of breast cancer, as reported by the National Cancer Institute. Dr. Len Lictepeen, deputy chief medical officer for the American Cancer Society, said women should not overlook or "play down" these findings. "This will hopefully change women's practice and patterns, resulting in a severe drop in the future number of cases," Lictepeen said. Sooner said the research shows no increase in the risk of breast cancer in those who are, for whatever reason, not able to fellate regularly. "There's definitely fertile ground for more research. Many have stepped forward to volunteer for related research now in the planning stages," he said. Almost every woman is, at some point, going to perform the act of fellatio, but it is the frequency at which this event occurs that makes the difference, say researchers. Also key seems to be the protein and enzyme count in the semen, but researchers are again waiting for more test data. The research consisted of two groups, 6,246 women ages 25 to 45 who had performed fellatio and swallowed on a regular basis over the past five to ten years, and 9,728 women who had not or did not swallow. The group of women who had performed and swallowed had a breast cancer rate of 1.9 percent and the group who had not had a breast cancer rate of 10.4 percent. "The findings do suggest that there are other causes for breast cancer besides the absence of regular fellatio," Shafteer said. "It's a cause, not THE cause." -CNN.com/health * * * * * * * * * * * one of my boys passed this on to me. okay, great that ya'll are willing to help us out and all....but man...semen is NASTY! i'm all for fellatio, but shit...you taste your own shit and tell us to swallow that!

Wednesday, November 12, 2003

To my friends To My Friends Who Are...........SINGLE Love is like a butterfly. The more you chase it, the more it eludes you. But if you just let it fly, it will come to you when you least expect it. Love can make you happy but often it hurts, but love's only special when you give it to someone who is really worth it. So take your time and choose the best. To My Friends Who Are............NOT SO SINGLE Love isn't about becoming somebody else's 'perfect person.' It's about finding someone who helps you become the best person you can be. To My Friends Who Are............PLAYBOY/GIRL TYPE Never say 'I love you' if you don't care. Never talk about feelings if they aren't there. Never touch a life if you mean to break a heart. Never look in the eye when all you do is lie. The cruelest thing a guy can do to a girl is to let her fall in love when he doesn't intend to catch her fall and it works both ways... To My Friends Who Are............MARRIED Love is not about 'it's your fault', but 'I'm sorry.' Not 'where are you', but 'I'm right here.' Not 'how could you', but 'I understand.' Not 'I wish you were', but 'I'm thankful you are.' To My Friends Who Are............ENGAGED The true measure of compatibility is not the years spent together but how good you are for each other. To My Friends Who Are............HEARTBROKEN Heartbreaks last as long as you want and cut as deep as you allow them to go. The challenge is not how to survive heartbreaks but to learn from them. To My Friends Who Are............NAIVE How to be in love: Fall but don't stumble, be consistent but not too persistent, share and never be unfair, understand and try not to demand, and get hurt but never keep the pain. To My Friends Who Are............POSSESSIVE It breaks your heart to see the one you love happy with someone else but it's more painful to know that the one you love is unhappy with you. To My Friends Who Are............AFRAID TO CONFESS Love hurts when you break up with someone. It hurts even more when someone breaks up with you. But love hurts the most when the person you love has no idea how you feel. To My Friends Who Are............STILL HOLDING ON A sad thing about life is when you meet someone and fall in love, only to find out in the end that it was never meant to be and that you have wasted years on someone who wasn't worth it. If he isn't worth it now he's not going to be worth it a year or 10 years from now. Let go..... TO ALL MY FRIENDS....... My wish for you is a man/women whose love is honest, strong, mature, never-changing, uplifting, protective, encouraging, rewarding and unselfish.
random thought.... A lot of people have gone farther than they thought they could, because someone else thought they could. -Zig Ziglar

Tuesday, November 11, 2003

Happiness "Happiness depends upon ourselves." By contemplating this important issue you just might realize you've looking too far ahead to enjoy the moments that make up a happy lifetime: that wet ear lick from a frisky dog... a hug from a small child... the earnest "I love you" uttered by that special someone you love with all your heart... Happiness isn't about money, prestige or fame. It's about enjoying what you have. It's not about yearning for things you haven't got. "Happiness is a journey, not a destination; happiness is to be found along the way not at the end of the road, for then the journey is over and it's too late. The time for happiness is today not tomorrow." --Paul H. Dunn ..

Monday, November 10, 2003

ummm okay.... Aphrodite
Aphrodite/Eros
?? Which Of The Greek Gods Are You ??
brought to you by Quizilla i got this off of bumblebootie's blog. heheh looks like she likes tests as much as i do! =D

Sunday, November 09, 2003

guilty pleasures... first go here...love test - animal test this is what i got... 1. You are attracted to those who have split personality, like cold as ice on the outside, but hot as fire in the heart. 2. In the process of courtship, the approach that would make you feel irresistable is straight-forward, just tell you he/she loves you. 3. The impression you would like to give to your lover is flexible. 4. You don't like it when your partner is insecure. 5. The kind of relationship you would like to build with your partner is one that you care not only about the present but also the future with your partner, a long-lasting relationship that you can grow with. 6. You care about the society and morality, you won't do anything wrong after marriage. 7. You think of marriage as a precious thing. Once you get married, you'll treasure it and your partner very much. 8. At this moment, you don't have the thirst for love, you can't do anything for it, you won't fall for it easily. then go here [it's fun!]
i am the one... You are Neo
You are Neo, from "The Matrix." You display a perfect fusion of heroism and compassion. What Matrix Persona Are You? brought to you by Quizilla hehehe i knew it! =D
signs... i've been asking for signs lately (just cause, i'd like to know some things). funny thing is...they've been popping up (as early as the next day). it's very weird to actually get my signs sooner rather than later, like my little prayer to jesus...i got my answer in like 4 days (which happens to be my favorite number =D). so i'll just leave with this, my favorite line from Matrix Revolutions... love is a word...what matters is the connection it applies too. *MWAH*

Friday, November 07, 2003

DON'T Don't attempt to run from the past, it is always behind you. Don't be afraid of opposition. Remember a kite rises against the wind. Don't be afraid of tomorrow, for God has already been there. Don't be afraid to learn. Knowledge is weightless treasure you can always carry easily. Don't be angry at a friend who told your secret for neither could you keep it to yourself. Don't be concerned others not appreciating you. Be concerned about you not appreciating others. Don't be irreplaceable --- if you can't be replaced, you won't be promoted. Don't be so Heavenly minded that you do no earthly good. Don't control. Be in control. Don't count the days. Make the days count. Don't cry because it's over, smile because it happened. Don't ever slam a door --- you may want to go back. Don't fear failure so much that you refuse to try new things. The saddest summary of a life contains three descriptions: could have, might have, and should have. Don't get good at doing something if you don't like doing it. Don't get married only because of the money. You can borrow it cheaper. Don't judge each day by the harvest you reap, but by the seeds you plant. Don't kill the dream - execute it! Don't learn the tricks of the trade, learn the trade. Don't let anybody walk through your mind with dirty feet. Don't let people drive you crazy when it is within walking distance. Don't let time take control of your destiny. Let your destiny take control of your time. Don't let what you cannot do interfere with what you can do. Don't let your life slip through your fingers by living in the past or for the future. Don't limit your challenges --- challenge your limits. Don't listen to what I say; listen to what I mean. Don't love the things you own, lest they own you. Don't measure your life by how many breaths you take, measure it by how many times you get your breath taken away. Don't pray for easy lives. Pray to be stronger people. Do let your friends check out these DON'Ts

Thursday, November 06, 2003

Dear Capricorn, you seem to like to hide your feelings and your emotional needs from other people. You really need to be able to trust other people in order to share your feeling with them. They seem to have to guess at your deepest secrets. Yet, today you could save a lot of time in your love life, if you would just accept to tell your partner what you want out of your relationship, or even what you would like to change about it. Talk about it. Your partner is listening... * * * * * * * * * * man, sometimes these things are right on the money.

Wednesday, November 05, 2003

lookie lookie You are NEMO!
What Finding Nemo Character are You?

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dream weaver I've just closed my eyes again Climbed aboard the dream weaver train Driver take away my worries of today And leave tomorrow behind (chorus) Ooh dream weaver I believe you can get me through the night Ooh dream weaver I believe we can reach the morning light Fly me high through the starry skies Maybe to an astral plane Cross the highways of fantasy Help me to forget todays pain (chorus again) Though the dawn may be coming soon There still may be some time Fly me away to the bright side of the moon And meet me on the other side (chorus again, then fade out with the following repeated several times...)

Tuesday, November 04, 2003

i want this i want this, i want this, i want this, i want this...and if no one gets it for me for my christmas or birthday...i'm gonna get it for myself dammit. but i don't know if i want burgandy or black and white...but i want it. i have an idea...everyone can chip in and get it for me! yah...heheh this WILL be on my list! =D

Friday, October 31, 2003

HAPPY HALLOWEEN have a great weekend everyone, watch out for the kids...and DON'T steal their candy!! go get your own! well, if you can go to the grocery store w/ out crossing a picket line. HA =D hahahah *mwah*

Thursday, October 30, 2003

BIG BEAR MOUNTAIN RESORTS As of 1:00 p.m. on Thursday October 30th, it is looking as though the Big Bear Valley including Snow Summit and Bear Mountain will NOT be affected by fire. Emergency and fire crews have done an amazing job preventing the fires from reaching Big Bear. A change in weather has helped and the latest forecast is even suggesting the possibility of light snow by Friday night. Over the course of the summer, we have taken several steps to insure the safety of Snow Summit and Bear Mountain. These steps include clearing trees from all facilities and lifts and positioning an intricate sprinkler system around the ridgelines of both resorts should fire approach. As you know, the resorts have two of the largest snowmaking systems in the world that are capable of bringing vast quantities of water to all areas of the resort should fire actually reach them (which is unlikely at this point). Please keep updated with the latest info on your local news stations. We will be onsite at the Fresh Tracks show in Long Beach this weekend. Please stop by to say Hi, and check out all the latest goods from Big Bear Mountain Resorts. We absolutely plan to open as usual sometime in mid to late November and look forward to a great 03-04 season. * * * * * * * * * * i'm so there!! who's with me??

Tuesday, October 28, 2003

LAKERS RELOADED oh man, my boys were on FIRE tonight! this season is gonna be kick ass!!! yeeeaahhhhhhh babbbbbyyyyy!! malone & payton were kickin ass...and of course my all time favorite.....FISHY!!!! we will get it back!!!! ahhhhhhhh yeeaahhhhhhhhh!!!! *mwah*
Have You Ever? [Chorus] Have you ever loved somebody so much It makes you cry Have you ever needed something so bad You can't sleep at night Have you ever tried to find the words But they don't come out right Have you ever, have you ever Have you ever been in love Been in love so bad You'd do anything to make them understand Have you ever had someone steal your heart away You'd give anything to make them feel the same Have you ever searched for the words to get you in their heart But you don't know what to say And you don't know where to start [Chorus] Have you ever found the one You've dreamed of all of your life You'd do anything to look into their eyes Have you finally found the one you've given your heart to Only to find that one won't give their heart to you Have you ever closed your eyes and Dreamed that they were there And all you can do is wait for the day when they will care [Chorus] What do I gotta do to get you in my arms baby What do I gotta say to get to your heart To make you understand how I need you next to me Gotta get you in my world 'Cuz baby I can't sleep [Chorus] * * * * * * * * * * this is stuck in my head at the moment...

Monday, October 27, 2003

Saturday, October 25, 2003

radio... i highly recommend this movie. it touched me so much that i cried (and i NEVER cry), but i wasn't the only one...everyone in my row was (even the boys!). i was told that some parts were overdone, but i don't think so...it was just right (if that is possible). cuba was excellent...he'll probably be nominated for an oscar for this one! =) i even bought the soundtrack. =) it was amazing. just go see it, yes...it WAS that good. =) oh and afterwords even the lady sitting next to me started talking to me about it, and the people next to them were so touched that they were touched...i even got a wave good-bye. =) "it's never a mistake to care for someone, that's always a good thing." *mwah*

Wednesday, October 22, 2003

Harry Potter and the Sorcerers Stone from buy.com Item#: GSPD6P Our Price: $29.99 Pre-Order Now: Release Date: 11/20/2003 Place your order today and be one of the first to receive this product when it arrives! Format: PS2 Release Date: 11/20/2003 Publisher: Electronic Arts * * * * * * * i'm excited now!!!

Sunday, October 19, 2003

home sweet home... had a great time on my 3 day weekend (yup, i took friday off!!) surrounded by family and friends...ahhh good times. of course my bro & howard worked on my car practically all day friday, so she's raised a bit...runs really good. thanks again guys! and i hooked up with people i haven't seen in a long time, drinks, food...good times were had by all!! =), alcohol is good...let me tell you! or actually, let me show you! first...they worked on my car... then... drinking is what we did... here's more!! thanks so much guys! *mwah*

Thursday, October 16, 2003

food for thought Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away. -George Carlin *mwah*
Ribbon In The Sky Oh so long for this night I prayed That a star would guide you my way To share with me this special day Where a ribbon's in the sky for our love If allowed may I touch your hand And if pleased may I once again So that you too will understand There's a ribbon in the sky for our love Do...Do... Do Do Do Do Do... HMM HMM... This is not a coincidence And far more than a lucky chance But what is that was always meant Is our ribbon in the sky for our love, love We can't lose with God on our side We'll find strength in each tear we cry From now on it will be you and I And our ribbon in the sky Ribbon in the sky A ribbon in the sky for our love Do...Do... Do Do Do Do Do... HMM HMM... [Musical Break] There's a ribbon in the sky for our love * * * * * * * * * * this is stuck in my head...probably cause i was listening to it in my car. i'm just really happy...and i'm going home today! whooo hoooo! have a great weekend everyone! *mwah*

Tuesday, October 14, 2003

it's madness i tell you!! i tell you, our part of the state is going crraazzzyyyyyyyy!!! first our major grocery store employees are on strike...so instead of crossing the picketing lines i choose to cook what i have in the fridge/freezer. then mta goes on strike this morning...so it's hellish out there on the mean streets of la! i heard that even the kids will have to get rides to get home after school. traffic will be hell for the next couple of days or more...and who knows how long the grocery employees will be on strike. it's madness!!!! argghhhhhhh!!!!

Sunday, October 12, 2003

lead the way Who would've believed That you and me would fall And land together And who could've foreseen In you I'd find the place I've belonged forever And, if I move closer Then love will take over And lead the way. I'd given up hope Losing the faith that love Could be mine to treasure And, now Nothing's the same I found myself reborn On the day I met you And, if we move closer Then love will take over And lead the way. Suddenly, you are lying here with me And the truths I used to hold have changed And, if I move closer And let it take over Then love will lead the way. If we move closer And let it take over Then love will lead the way. * * * * * * * * * * i heard this on a re-run of ally mcbeal...anyone have it? i really like it. =)

Saturday, October 11, 2003

picture pages these are some pictures from last weekend up in san jose, yeah from the funeral. BUT! if you wanna see some more shots of this little hottie...click here!
here's some random shots of me and my family taken over the last year =) here's more!
enjoy! *mwah*
babygirl got new shoes... actually, i like to call them boots (since i absolutely love boots ;) !!). so she's been getting new boots every year...well lately anyway. so i'll most likley be going back home on thursday so uncle noel can raise her back up...might have to put a camber kit on her...but we'll see. hopefully after we put the original springs back on she'll be okay, i really don't wanna put the kit on ...then i'll have to drop 3 bills...grrrr. so yeah...ya'll have a beautiful weekend. *mwah*

Friday, October 10, 2003

stuck in my head...at the moment I'm telling the world Here and now That I'm gonna love you and love you I take this vow You captured my heart So long ago Still there are some critical things That you should know Yeeaah yeaah yeah Do I give all I am To be now and forever you man Do I take you to be Without question the woman for me Do I promise you I Do Do I promise you I do, I do This love has been worth waiting for This love doesn't matter to me If it's not yours As we become one Through and through I dedicate all my life To loving you Yeah yeaah yeah Do I give all I am To be now and forever you man Do I take you to be Without question the woman for me Do I promise you I Do Do I promise you I do, I do To have and to hold While passions unfold I promise a life you won't regret For better or worse Noo one can reverse the way that I felt And you ain't seen nothin yet (Girl) Do I give all I am To be now and forever you man Do I take you to be Without question the woman for me Do I swear on my life we'll be happy as husband and wife? Do I promise you Do I promise you Do I promise you I do Do I promise you I do * * * * * * * * * * this was the song in my head that i woke up to. no, it wasn't playing on the radio, it was just playing...in my head. anyway...it's friday!! so ya'll have a happy friday!!! and the bestest weekend!! *mwah*

Thursday, October 09, 2003

hmmmm.... i can't stop smiling. =) the only problem i have at the moment is this song going through my head...it's been stuck there since monday. does anyone know the lyrics to "can i call you my girl" by pc quest? it suddenly popped in there monday night...and it refuses to go away. help me...

Tuesday, October 07, 2003

judgment day ahhahahahahhhaha schwarzenegger won! whoooo hooooo we got the terminator as governor!!! YEAHHHHHH! i heard that some people would be moving back out of state if this were to happen. interesting. hahahhahahha SUCKA'S!!!! yay, prop 54 was dissed and dismissed! see voting works, it's our civic duty. hey, ya'll can complain all you want...unless someone changes the system it ain't gonna change. DEAL WITH IT!! ahhhhh, gotta love it! *MWAH*
Capricorn It may seem like everyone around you is happy and getting what they want, while you are still stuck in the trenches, dear Capricorn. Don't compare yourself to other people and make judgments based on their outside appearances. The truth of the matter is that most likely they are only looking at the immediate future and only experiencing short-term pleasures. You, however, have your eyes set on the long haul, and will probably be much better off overall. * * * * * * * * * * i like my horoscope for today. =) have a beautiful day everyone...and don't forget to vote (well, all of you out here on the west side *throws up the 'dub*). *mwah*
recall election... GO OUT THERE AND VOTE CALIFORNIANS!!! i did it via absentee, so go out there and let your voice be heard!! every vote counts!! especially in this election...it's history in the making. yay california!! whoooo hoooooo!! go to it!! *MWAH*

Monday, October 06, 2003

something to keep in mind i told this to a friend of mine today, "you can't always play it safe. . . sometimes it's good to take a chance." you gotta at least try right?
happy yom kippur =)

Thursday, October 02, 2003

something nice to share Maybe God wanted us to meet the wrong people before meeting the right one so that when we finally meet the right person, we will know how to be grateful for that gift. Maybe when the door of happiness closes, another opens, but often times we look so long at the closed door that we don't see the one which has been opened for us. Maybe the best kind of friend is the kind you can sit on a porch and swing with, never say a word, and then walk away feeling like it was the best conversation you've ever had. Maybe it is true that we don't know what we've got until we lose it, but it is also true that we don't know what we've been missing until it arrives. Don't go for looks; they can deceive. Don't go for wealth; even that fades away. Go for someone who makes you smile because it takes only a smile to make a dark day seem bright. Find the one that makes your heart smile. There are moments in life when you miss someone so much that you just want to pick them from your dreams and hug them for real. Dream what you want to dream; go where you want to go; be what you want to be, because you have only one life and one chance to do all the things you want to do. May you have enough happiness to make you sweet, enough trials to make you strong, enough sorrow to keep you human, enough hope to make you happy. The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best of everything; they just make the most of everything that comes along their way. Love begins with a smile, grows with a kiss and ends with a tear. The brightest future will always be based on a forgotten past, you can't go on well in life until you let go of your past failures and heartaches. When you were born, you were crying and everyone around you was smiling. Live your life so that when you die, you are the one smiling and everyone around you is crying. * * * * * * * * * * thanks kevin! =)
random thought... Let your heart guide you. It whispers, so listen carefully. -Land Before Time * * * * * * * * * * i stole this from bumblebootie. it was just speaking to me this morning (and apparently. . . i was listening). thanks girlie. . . *mwah*

Wednesday, October 01, 2003

All my life I will never find another lover sweeter than you, sweeter than you I will never find another lover more precious than you, more precious than you Girl You are Close to me you're like my mother, Close to me you're like my father, Close to me you're like my sister, Close to me you're like my brother You are the only one my everything and for you this song I sing All my life I pray for someone like you I thank God that I, that I finally found you All my life I pray for someone like you I hope that you feel the same way too Yes, I pray that you do, love me too Said I promised to never fall in love with a stranger, You're all I'm thinking of I praise the Lord above, For sending me your love, I cherish every hug, I REALLY LOVE YOU!!! All my life, I pray for someone like you, I thank God that I, that I finally found you All my life I pray for someone like you I hope that you feel the same way too Yes, I pray that you do, love me You're all that I've ever known, your smile on your face, all I see is a glow, You turned my life around, You picked me up when I was down, You're all that I've ever known, when you smile your face glows, You picked me up when I was down You're all that I've ever known, when you smile your face glows, You picked me up when I was down & I hope that you feel the same way too, Yes I pray that you do love me too All my life, I pray for someone like you, I thank God that I, that I finally found you All my life I pray for someone like you I hope that you feel the same way too Yes, I pray that you do, love me too All my life I pray for someone like you * * * * * * * * * * * i like this one too...they just don't make 'em like this anymore...
Come And Talk To Me (Intro) I've been watching you, baby For a long time You look so good Got my eyes on you (Verse 1) I've been watching you For so every long Trying to get my nerve built up To be so strong I really want to meet you But I'm kinda of scared 'Cause you're the kind of lady With so much class I get my thoughts together For the every next day But when I see you lady I forget what to say Your eyes demand Such a beautiful tone The way you dress and walk It really turns me on, yeah... Ooh, yeah, you really turn me on Come on, come on, come on... (Chorus) Come and talk to me I really want to meet you Can I talk to you I really want to know you Come and talk to me I really want to meet you Can I talk to you I really want to know you Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh... (Verse 2) There you are again With the same smile on each day I wanna know what it is That makes me feel this way I wish I could grab you Tell you what it means to me To see you walking my way It really makes my day Before I go to sleep And dream about you I'm a single man I hope that you are single, too Why do I seek Something to set my mind free 'Cause curiosity is bugging The hell out of me, baby... Talk to me, talk to me Talk to me, baby (Chorus) You want to tell me your name Let me play your game You want to tell me your name Let me play your game (Vamp Out) * * * * * * * * * * * this song just popped into my head... been reminiscing. i really want a slow jam cd. dammit. i'll be your best friend. ;) oh and these new colors remind me of vanilla ice cream with strawberry topping... i always want to lick my screen whenever i see it. heh.

Monday, September 29, 2003

please keep the intia family in mind... i just found out from my cousin-n-law that they will have to take my uncle-n-law off of life support, and a memorial will be held on saturday. please keep nice thoughts, and your prayers for my uncle and the family. this has been a long ongoing battle. thank you.

Saturday, September 27, 2003

. . . . you had me at hello. you complete me. i am the king of the kingdom... the lord of the living. i want to be inspired. other guys have the calm, i have the qwam. why should i let this one go, when everything in my body says.. he is the one. you bet on me...like i bet on you.
Circle of life From the day we arrive on the planet And blinking, step into the sun There's more to be seen than can ever be seen More to do than can ever be done Some say eat or be eaten Some say live and let live But all are agreed as they join the stampede You should never take more than you give (Chorus) In the Circle of Life It's the wheel of fortune It's the leap of faith It's the band of hope Till we find our place On the path unwinding In the Circle, the Circle of Life Some of us fall by the wayside And some of us soar to the stars And some of us sail through our troubles And some have to live with the scars There's far too much to take in here More to find than can ever be found But the sun rolling high Through the sapphire sky Keeps the great and small on the endless round (Chorus repeats) On the path unwinding In the Circle, the Circle of Life. * * * * * * * * * * i like this song...kinda fits. i pre-ordered my dvd...did you?

Thursday, September 25, 2003

you know what i miss? getting tapes from guys, making tapes for a guy, agonizing over what songs to put, the length of the song or even the tape, getting pages of 177012171176 or 6000 17173 or 143, 823 - 247 or 1 177155 400, letters they give to you on your way to your next class, or the way they look at you when they don't think you're looking, getting rides from them in their parents car (HA!), or their new integra or honda civic (whoo hooo), phone calls (and constantly being interrupted by your mom), getting goofy with the girls every time you talk about them, first dates...first anything for that matter, holding hands during breaks...or at the mall, staying up late talking...hoping your parents don't wake up and catch you. i also miss... staying up late in front of a computer trying to read a scroll... that's going too daymn fast! going on IRC trips (ROAD TRIP anyone?? anyone??), getting snail mail of pictures (before everyone started scanning everything, and being all high tech), bonfires, housewarmings, albertos, parties, random emails just saying hi and what up! visits from complete strangers....that i talk to online. singing on voice mails, or having someone else on my message, cutting class to go to the computer lab, eating dinner in front of the computer while tYpIng LiKe ThIs (we were so strange), and getting all happy whenever someone would yell out LEEN! (or insert name here). now we have... text messaging on our cellys, gadgets galore (BEST BUY RULES!!), aim, yahoo, msn, icq, and back by popular demand....mIRC! some of us have those same civics, cd players in our cars instead of tape decks, friendster (HA!), blogs or lj's, flying instead of driving (i even go alone!). there's probably more to add to my lists...ahhh those were the days. why did we have to grow up? i would so kill for a mix cd/tape, a 177012171176 text or even a 6000 17173. now no one has time...it's all hi and good bye...but in the immortal words of blackstreet...don't say good bye...say good night. adieu.
remember this? ...I don't see it being a problem If I just get one little bitty kiss baby... I just can't let you get away, oh yeah... Lord, have mercy... I don't want lose your sweet love So don't say good-bye, say good-night. * * * * * * * * * * now who wants to make me a slow jam cd/tape? hahahhaha those were the days!

Wednesday, September 24, 2003

have a little faith... i got my sign today. =)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JENN-LAN!! you're my age now! =) go out there and get you sum...and kick the fucker out!!! =) whoooo hoooooo drink up you alcoholic!!! hehe i'll take you out next time i'm home. happy birthday girl =) *mwah*

Monday, September 22, 2003

i wanna see this... who wants to come with? the previews alone moved me, actually...this looks like i'll probably cry. =) haven't seen a movie that has made me cry in a long time. they don't make 'em that way anymore huh?
quotable quotes the hardest part about moving forward... is not looking back. got that from bumblebootie. thanks girlie! that's so true!!! *mwah*

Sunday, September 21, 2003

whispers... i still know html. *mwah*
random lines "i've been thinking a lot lately about you and me, and i've came to a conclusion that i didn't want to deal with. but now that we talked i can't hide it anymore. i think we'd get a long much better, if we didn't spend so much time together anymore. why? because i'm driving you crazy, and you're driving me crazy, and i'd rather not see you, and have you think good things about me, then have you see me and hate me. cause i can't afford to have you hate me keith, the only things i care about in this god daymn life are me and my drums and you. adios." "...i went along with it cause i, i rather be next to somebody for the wrong reasons, then alone for the right ones. i'd rather be right. i couldn't stand being alone. nobody can stand being alone. the minute you stop thinking there's someone out there for you it's over, isn't it?...isn't it? i don't know." "...remember how i said i'd rather be with someone for the wrong reasons, then alone for the right ones? i'd rather be right. it's gonna feel good to stand on my own." "i'm sorry, i didn't know. yeah, well you're stupid. i always knew you were stupid. why didn't you tell me? you never asked. ...i wanted these, i really wanted them. they're yours. you knew you were going to get them. no i didn't, i hoped no i didn't know you knew. i had a feeling, well how do they look? you look good...wearing my future."
revisiting the past "...and these children that you spit on as they try to change their worlds are immune to your consultations. they're quite aware of what they're going through..." -david bowie as you walk on by...will you call my name?

Friday, September 19, 2003

voices of reason you see, i have these two voices of reason. . . and they usually say the same thing at about the same time. i've been really antsy lately. . . but i think i'll be okay now. they're basically just pointing out the obvious, and i really don't like listening (but i can't stop thinking about what they said). i can give them advice up the yin yang, but when it comes to me. . . it just takes a lil while to sink in. so i just wanted to thank gen and lissa. thanks guys, i love you both! *mwah*
so i've come to this conclusion friendster is evil! people that i've been not really hiding from, but not really associating with (for good reason) are finding me. i left them when i left the bay. . . they weren't supposed to be able to find me. not that i'm really hiding, but shit, no more drama! don't get me wrong, sometimes it's not evil. . . i like what some people write about me, or the fact that i can contact people that i haven't talked to or seen in years. why do the people that i don't want any contact with have to find me? why can't they just let the past be the past? maybe they feel that it's time to move on? that's all well and good. . . thing is. . . i still remember. some shit you just can't forget, no matter how hard you try, or how much time passes.

Thursday, September 18, 2003

i need this!! now who's gonna get it for me?
memory lane A little house with three bedrooms and one car on the street, A mower that you had to push to make the grass look neat. In the kitchen on the wall we only had one phone, And no need for recording things, someone was always home. We only had a living room where we would congregate, Unless it was at meal time in the kitchen where we ate. We had no need for family rooms or extra rooms to dine, When meeting as a family those two rooms would work out fine. We only had one TV set and channels maybe two, But always there was one of them with something worth the view. For snacks we had potato chips that tasted like a chip, And if you wanted flavor there was Lawson's � onion dip. Store bought snacks were rare because my mother liked to cook, And nothing can compare to snacks in Betty Crocker's � book. The snacks were even healthy with the best ingredients, There wa s no label with a hundred things that made no sense. Weekends were for family trips or staying home to play, We all did things together even go to church to pray. When we did our weekend trips depending on the weather, No one stayed at home because we liked to be together. Sometimes we would separate to do things on our own, But we knew where the others were without our own cell phone. Then there was the movies with your favorite movie star, And nothing can compare to watching movies in your car. Then there were the picnics at the peak of summer season, Pack a lunch and find some trees and never need a reason. Get a baseball game together with the friends you know, Have real action playing ball and no game video. Remember when the doctor used to be the family friend, And didn't need insurance or a lawyer to defend, The way that he took care of you or what he had to do, Because he took an oath and stri ved to do the best for you. Remember when the country was united under God, And prayer in schools and public places was not deemed as odd. Remember when the church was used for worshipping The Lord, And not used for commercial use or for some business board. Remember going to the store and shopping casually, And when you went to pay for it you used your own money. Nothing that you had to swipe or punch in some amount, Remember when the cashier person had to really count? Remember when we breathed the air it smelled so fresh and clean, And chemicals were not used on the grass to keep it green. The milkman and the bread man used to go from door to door, And it was just a few cents more than going to the store. There was a time when mailed letters came right to your door, Without a lot of junk mail ads sent out by every store. The mailman knew each house by name and knew where it was sent, There was not lo ads of mail addressed to present occupant. Remember when the words "I do" meant that you really did, And not just temporally till someone blows their lid. There was no such thing as no one's fault; we just made a mistake, There was a time when married life was built on give and take. There was a time when just one glance was all that it would take, And you would know the kind of car, the model and the make. They didn't look like turtles trying to squeeze every mile, They were streamlined, white walls and fins and really had some style. One time the music that you played whenever you would jive, Was from a vinyl, big holed record called a forty-five. The record player had a post to keep them all in line, And then the records would drop down and play one at a time. Oh sure we had our problems then just like we do today, And always we were striving, trying for a better way. And every year that passed us by bro ught new and greater things, We now can even program phones with music or with rings. Oh the simple life we lived still seems like so much fun, How can you explain a game, just kick the can and run. And why would boys put baseball cards between bicycle spokes, And for a nickel red machines had little bottled cokes. That life seemed so much easier and slower in some ways, I love the new technology but I sure miss those days. So time moves on and so do we and nothing stays the same But I sure love to reminisce and walk down memory lane. * * * * * * * * * * ahhh, the good 'ol days. i miss them so. *mwah*

Monday, September 15, 2003

i want it to be perfectly clear. . . like glass. thanks lan! *mwah* i promise not to do it again, and if i do. . . someone needs to be on the phone with me!! hehehehe i was careful, i promise!!! i was!! =)

Sunday, September 14, 2003

governors race? as i sit here reading my "california statewide special election official voter information guide" i get distracted by the fox news. you see, they have candidates go on the show for a few minutes (they've been doing this since this whole debacle started), and i was just appalled by the candidate tonight. she knew NOTHING about politics, and dogged every question that had anything to do with politics. you don't need to know about politics to run for governor? bull fucking shit. bitch runs a bar for god's sake. she's a "entrepreneur" this is her 3rd bar she's owned, and some other bullshit that she's been running. granted she wants to take the tax off of cigarettes (didn't even have a good enough reason for that), although that would be cool. . . still she didn't have another way to raise the money besides taking the tax off of cigs or alcohol. now tell me this. how is that going to make her the best candidate for governor? she says she dosen't need to know politics, how the fuck can she go on tv and say that? she clowned on davis, but i have a few more words for her. she couldn't answer a daymn question, she left looking like a friken fool. granted, i can't remember her name, but it wasn't in my 'offical voter information guide.' swear, everyone and their momma is running for governor. i still have no idea of who i'm voting for, but at least i decided that i'm going to do it via absentee. i have a month to decide. man. . . 134 candidates, and we only have to pick one. guess i better start up on my reading, i don't wanna pick one randomly. . . they say our vote counts right? so hopefully mine will count. *mwah*
my new friend so floudner is adjusting to his new home quite nicely. he's so soft and cuddly, you can't help but hug him (sales lady told us that i have to do that--cause he's a special plush). =) so here he is in his new home. . .
hehehe he sleeps with me in my bed. ;) *mwah*

Friday, September 12, 2003

happy birthday to my blog so all of you have seen one year of my random thoughts, vents, obsessions, happiness & sadness. you've seen my template changes, and updates (i still know html!!) & my random pictures. thank you all for reading, thanks for the input or for the random comments (i love comments). i'm glad i could entertain you in the only way i know how. you have been there through all my trips, seen me through my sadness. . . and lots of happy times. you have seen my writing style change (kinda), you have given me input on my questions, or you listened to me vent about anything and everything. thanks for going along with me on the ride, it was like yesterday i was asking mike. . . what is blogger? how do you do that comments thing? what do you write about? this was supposed to be an outlet for writing, and for the most part it's been just that. i still don't have a song to sing, but that's my bad. so yay, happy birthday to my blog, happy birthday to my blog, happy birthday little bloooooggggg, happy birthday to you. love you! *MWAH* thanks for introducing me to the world of blog mike!

Thursday, September 11, 2003

2 year anniversary

i remember turning on the tv. . . and i thought it was a clip from a movie. called my carpool buddy and made her turn on the tv, she started flipping out. as soon as we got to work we got sent back home. as soon as i got home i was trying to get a hold of michele (she was in jersey for business), couldn't get a hold of her. turns out she was supposed to be on the plane from jersey to sf. . . the one that crashed near the pentagon. i was freaking out, calling her cell like every hour on the hour. . . she ended up emailing me at work (so i didn't find out she was okay till the next day). it's just amazing to me, everyone seems to know someone who was affected by 9/11. . . i thought we were next. . .

Wednesday, September 10, 2003

random lyrics playing in my head I'm Standing on a bridge I'm waitin in the dark I thought that you'd be here by now Theres nothing but the rain No footsteps on the ground I'm listening but theres no sound Isn't anyone tryin to find me? Won't somebody come take me home It's a damn cold night Trying to figure out this life Wont you take me by the hand take me somewhere new I dont know who you are but I... I'm with you . . . It's a damn cold night Trying to figure out this life Wont you take me by the hand take me somewhere new I dont know who you are but I... I'm with you Take me by the hand take me somewhere new I dont know who you are but I... I'm with you I'm with you * * * * * * * * * lyrics always get stuck in there for some reason. i can't explain it. so i got excused from jury duty today. plaintiff's attorney probably didn't like any of my answers. oh well, too bad for him! that's what they get from interrupting me from my reading! i almost finished fellowship today. grrrrrrr. i think i'm content. *mwah*

Tuesday, September 09, 2003

picture pages, picture pages so i finally was able to download everything (and i mean everything). so herrrrrreeeeeee you go. . . pick a day, any day. . . day 1, day 2, day 3, day 4. sorry if some of them are blurry or what not, i'm not that great at takin pics (but i try). hope you enjoy the show! i want copies from everyone else. . . so hurry up and put them on ofoto, or what not. =) *mwah*

Monday, September 08, 2003

jersey - day 4 so it was my last day on the east coast. . . and we headed over to best buy! phil let me drive, so i can say i drove on the east coast. we picked up tim. . . then went to my most favorite store EVER! it's set up the same way as it is over in cali! i was like, oh wow. phil said i could dance in circles (on that big yellow dot) but i decided that i should contain myself. everything basically looks the same (i didn't think it would be any different--maybe the set up). so we headed over to barnes. i'm so sorry phil. . . i didn't mean to grind your lil girls gears. . . or forget how to take out the key. i'm really really sorry. yeah, i refused to drive after that. so yeah, i can now say i drove on the east coast (will i drive in the city? that's a whole other story). so after that we headed over and chilled at starbucks for a quick minute. . . took my last pictures of jersey (heh at starbucks). =) i love starbucks. . . coffee is ALWAYS good. phil basically told me it was up to me to decide what do to for the next 4 or so hours. of course i couldn't figure out what to do. . . then i was like. . . umm shotglass? so we headed to china town for one last time. =) i don't think anyone understood me when i said shot glass. . . the first lady just showed me where the sunglasses were. . . then we were just perusing different shops to see what they had. finally, i found one to add to my collection. . . a nice double shot with a black design. of course all the sanrio stores didn't have my pekkle. swear, i still don't know why they discontinued him. . . he's the cutest character ever! so after all that, we headed back to phil's to get my stuff. . . so the boys could drop me off at the airport. that was my last trip through the holland tunnel and pulaski skyway (for a lil while anyway). good thing we got there when we did. i was in a long ass line. . . then when i finally got through i had to rush to the gate. i had a lil bit of time to chill (and take out the contacts), so i was good. the plane ride was much better going back. no screaming children, nothing like that. buttttt the lady that sat next to me was friken irritating me! every time i laughed at the movie she would look at me with these big eyes, like. . . how dare you! sorry you didn't have a head set to listen with. . . it's not the same without the volume huh. even when i asked for orange juice she would stare at me. and she was moving around in her seat cause i think she got mad that i was using all my space up. i don't care if you can move in your seat beyatch, i'm not going to give you space. . . sorry you can't curl up in fetal position like me. jealous much? so in a nutshell. . . that was my trip to the east coast. i had soooo much fun out there. . . i wasn't bored, just tired. if you were on the plane i was on (hello--chain reaction of screaming babies interrupted the sleeping plan). . . you would understand. so i would like to thank phil for being a really great tour guide (swear, you had to put up with me for 4 days and cram in all the sites?). . . and absolutely wonderful company. almost exactly what i had in mind. =) don't worry, i'll be back. . . even with "formal karaoke" or whatever you pull out of your hat. thanks for letting me use your room. . . i really like your monitor. *HUG* i'm glad i was able to meet the "east coast irc'ers". . . always wanted to swing this way. . . and now i have. now i can put faces to the "nicks" (well besides pictures--so not the same). so yeah i'm back doing the daily once again. . . didn't have jury duty today, and i'm HELLA tired, yo. i think i've said enough about my trip. i can't wait to go back again. =) *MWAH*

Sunday, September 07, 2003

jersey - day 3 we actually slept in today. . . hehe i made phil watch lotr - two towers (well this mornin') and umm like usual. . . i fell asleep towards the middle. oooppppsss, sowee phil. so we didn't really sleep till like after 7ish. sorry about that. . . i know i kinda just got up and went to bed. . . sorry. so when we did get up we went to jersey gardens. . . i found a few stuff at h&m. phil was trying to tell me that over here, karaoke is "formal". he even got jayce to tell me that it was formal attire. phil was like. . . this is new york. wow cali has "casual karaoke"? and of course, like a dumb ass i sorta believe him. i'm not sure about this guy. . . swear. . . i can't tell when he's joking or when he's serious. grrrrrrrr. then when i was on the phone jayce was like, "do you guys have casual weddings?" i was just explaining afternoon type weddings as compared to evenings weddings (which i'm sure is the same out here). he was like, just go to h&m you can get a dress from them. then phil decides to tell me that for weddings it's mandatory that the dj play "new york new york" and on the groomsmen bottom left sleeve they have two bands. . . symbolizing the man and the woman. swear. . . he had me believing the "formal karaoke" till we were about to leave to go pick tim up. i was like. . . aren't you going to change? so we get to 2nd & 2nd. i've never been to the karaoke places with the rooms before. it was kinda cool actually, and yes. . . they made me sing. it wasn't so bad. . . i finally sang that christina aguilera song i've been meaning to sing at jac. figured i practiced it, and the words were like right there. . . so why not? i was living the dream, as tim put it. HA! but after a few glasses of red wine, i was singing with roz, or whatever was playing. it was really fun. didn't think karaoke could be that fun. i guess that's why phil likes it so much. i think it's his favorite thing to do. he was all excited about it. daymn you formal karaoke! i'll get you back. . . you watch. . . i will. that was a really cool way to end my actual last day/night over here. next time i come out we're gonna hit up a lot of other places. heh. atlantic city. . . here we come! so yeah, today we're gonna go to BEST BUY!!! i LOVE that store. i'm gonna make phil dance in circles! hahahha so you guys have a great day. . . i'll be back on a plane tonight. ahhh vacation was way to short. . . but i had the best time ever. so not bored. so glad i came. =) with all that. . . i shall bid ya'll adieu. *mwa*

Saturday, September 06, 2003

jersey - day 2 actually we hit up ny via the "path". we walked all over the city (haven't done that much walking. . . ever). we went through times square, 5th ave, passed by radio city music hall, stopped in at st. patricks cathedral, went to the nba store, & disney store. . . . and through central park. ^_^ while we were at the disney store. . . I FOUND FLOUNDER!!!! he was the very last one & he's a special plush. . . he's so cuddly. i love him. i've been looking all over for the little guy. . . and i find him in the disney store in nyc. hmmmmmmmm. interesting, yes? so anyway, we were trying to get a cab. . . we walked along central park & some side streets. . . phil kept trying but no one wanted to stop so he let me do it. heh. 2 minutes later we're getting into a cab. heheh *snap* i think i can make it out here. heheheh so yay, my first cab ride in nyc! he was kinda scary. . . i kept looking at how close he would get to the other cars. so we hooked up with jayce and had lunch/dinner at bbq's. food was good, but their rasberry ice tea sucks. . . it was like colored water. maybe i should start drinking soda again (at least when i come out here). we walked down canal street and phil was forcing me to go into stores and trying to get me to buy things. . . since he didn't want me to make them all walk down without buying anything. . . i personally didn't think it was a waste of time or anything since i'm just taking everything in (it's a friken big ass city!!! - and i'm only one small person. . . kinda overwhelming). but at least they said i don't walk slow--heh i was actually keeping up with them. they said by the end of the day i'd have calves of steal. . . i already have calves of steal! *flex* this was like step class, or not even. . . i wasn't even tired. *pats back* *flings hair* then we went on my very first subway!!! it was actually kinda of nice. i kept looking at everyone (i love people watching). it's kinda like the bart, but considering that i only went on the bart once i can't really compare (or is the path like bart? i don't remember). jayce hopped on another subway ('cause he didn't wanna go up steps with us--or something) . . and we went up the empire state building. it's hella tall man! but i love lights, it's sooooo much better than twin peaks. you get an all around view of the city--which was very cool. these lights were way better than s.f. lights. . . but we were also way higher up than if we were at twin peaks--so i think that counts for something. i kept thinking of sleepless in seattle when we were up there, i was like. . . it didn't look like this in the movie! it actually looked a lot smaller, but i guess if it wasn't packed with all those people then maybe it would have looked bigger. anyway. . . so we took the path back to jersey. went to take a few pics of the skyline (it was hella nice--well especially since it didn't rain today). then phil showed me the giants stadium and something else (can't remember--sowee). . . and my tour of jersey and nyc was officially over. i still can't remember the name of that bridge we keep going on. . . starts with a p? since the tour was over. . . we "attempted" to play harry potter sorcerer's stone over at tim's pad. so yeah, basically i'm stuck--i think i'm just going to give up. we played some other game. . . something to do with disney characters. . . then halo. i had absolutely no idea what i was doing. . . i was just trying to kill phil while spinning around in circles (or i should say "destiny" was trying to kill "ver7igo" hehehhe). hehehe sorry for shooting you tim, i got confused. so we started playing the actual game. . .got a little tired of it. . . then i got a little dizzy. umm sorry guys. . . so didn't expect that to happen. i haven't done that in a while. . . maybe it was just time. . . you know time and place for everything (umm yeah okay). at least i didn't umm yeah all over your living room heheheh soweee. then we headed back to phil's and watched my man shoot some arrows. . . and gracefully get on his horse (i don't care if that's cg. . . he still looks hot doing it!!). *sigh* by the time we actually went to bed it was past 7ish in the morning. . . then i woke up to early. . . woke up phil. . . then went back to bed. . . then "attempted" to wake up phil after a few hours of quality time with the bed. now i'm up and ready to go. . . so with all this i shall bid you adieu. have a wonderful weekend. . . i know i am. =) *MWA*

Friday, September 05, 2003

jersey - day 1 so as soon as i get on the plane. . . screaming babies EVERYWHERE. it's like they were getting inside my head. . . i felt like my head was about to explode. i know for a fact that no one in my row was able to sleep. i was just listening to my cd's and trying to figure out what movie they were playing. i bet, even if i started reading lotr i wouldn't have fallen asleep. . . hell, i could have finished the book!! i could not wait to land--swear that made me never want to have children. . . EVER!!! so i land (nice airport btw). . .phil was on time--even though he joked that he might be late (or have jayce come get me). . . my luggage was like the last one they throw out (or whatever they do). hehe i thought it got lost, or it was left in la by then. then we go to breakfast--DUDE you can smoke inside the resturant!!!!! i was like. . . hell yeah! that's a first for me (come on now--you can only do that in vegas!!), considering you can't do that in cali (and i'm told also in ny). anyway, i got the driving tour of jersey and parts of ny on day 1. we went through hoboken (i like the buildings btw), and we went on a bunch of bridges (i don't remember the names. . . one of them starts with a p--i was supposed to have a test at the end of the day but i think we were too tired then). one of the first places we went to was mitsuwa. i think i've been to the one over in cali before with my family (i think)--dude. . . you can smoke in this one!! haha i think i just got excited to see that you can smoke in places where you can't over in cali. it was really really overcast (and off and on raining) so we couldn't see the skyline. . . so we headed over to see lady liberty. we rode a ferry!! i haven't done that in years (at least i think i did--can't remember exactly when i did). we went over to ellis island (we didn't get off) then off to the statue of liberty. she's friken huge! i was like whoa. i even bought my daddy a hat from the "outside gift shop". and i so appologize to phil. . . i was "hella" tired at that point ( & I WAS NOT BORED!!!!). i had a great time during the site seeing (you're a really great tour guide!!). ^_^ you're soooo the bomb! we went driving around after that--grabbed some coffee at starbucks (i love coffee!!) and we were on our way to the city. now before this, i actually wanted to drive up in the city. . . umm after like a second i changed my mind. dude, it's like we were in the pinas! people were just walking out in the street, and they not only cut you off, they don't signal, and everyone just goes. i was scared just sitting on the passenger side! i was totally freaked out. like yeah. heheeh then off to hop kee for dinner (we'll we got there "hella" early so we walked around china town). since i was "hella" tired i was sitting in the car as everyone was coming in. . . let's get this straight. i was TIRED, i do not have an attitude problem, and I WAS NOT BORED!!! you try not really sleeping the night before, getting on a plane with children screaming the entire 5 or so hours. . . i wanna see how hyper you are. i think i was hungry, cause after we ate (i really liked it btw) i was semi-fine again. hehe i got to meet the east coast irc'ers, let's see. . .gail, donna, anna, jayce, john, airs (i can't remember your wife or your girlfriends name?), ohhhh the baby (he's "hella" cute!), hubert, and roz (i probably missed someone--sorry). so don't worry guys i told them all ya'll said hi, and they said hi back. heheh as soon as we got to the table all the cameras were out and we started passing the baby around, and takin' pics at every stop (pics to come later). so yeah, then off to bubble tea (after we took the pic outside of hop kee [they tell me it's traditon]). . . it's not exactly like boba, or pearl tea. . . but it's good. at that point i was just gone. i needed to re-charge my batteries (it's not like i'm 23 again, pullin' the all nighters. . . or hittin up the clubs and going home at ungodly hours--i really hate getting old). so back to jersey we went. surprisingly it took me a lil bit to fall asleep. i mean it was only 9 something cali time and 12 something jersey time. . . i tried to entertain myself with the tv, then i logged on to see who was up. i went to go see if phil was still up--then i saw the lights off, so i went back upstairs. i know i fell asleep cause when i opened my eyes again it was friken bright as hell (well hell isn't bright--actually i don't know about that one). so i'm up now. 10:52 jersey. . . so it's like 7:52 back at home. i swear, i hate waking up early all the time. . . this is why i never sleep in!! even if i was tired cause of the day/night before!! arrgghhh!! i'm so having the bestest time ever. i hear the weather is really nice today. shorts it is! heheh okies, since i'm up. . . i'm gonna go wake up phil! have a great day everyone!!!!!! *MWA* all the way from joisy baby!!! =)

Monday, September 01, 2003

random lines. . . again (it never ends!!) you said it was bad timing and i figured if i asked again maybe you'd say yes and if not that time then maybe the next time till the next time became the right time ahhh, persistence you'd be suprised how far it can get you. jealosy is a sickness let it go and just walk away. i don't even know why i'm here. after all these years together you don't know why you're here? all we have marvin is all these years. . . and it's just not enough. . . anymore. you want some truism my friend? when that jones comes down, it's gonna be muthafucka. * * * * * * * * * * 2/34

Sunday, August 31, 2003

manong merrick & jen's wedding so it took us 4 friken hours to get to daygo! so yes, we missed the ceremony all together. but it's okay, i was forgiven. haven't seen some of these people in years, so yes. . . a good time was had by all. shannon had the table rolling (she's the best date ever!!), of course the wine helped. we made some new friends who incidentally are from jersey. . . grace & erickson (grace still lives in jersey & erickson lives in daygo). i didn't really have a chance to talk to manong (of course), but i had a mini-chat with him during the money dance. i'm sooooo happy for him, i know he wanted this for a while. so on that note, here's the happy couple. . . want more? click here! 3/34

Saturday, August 23, 2003

the third installation so there you have it. . . my trilogy is complete. thank you steve from outer limits. . . you're soooooo the bomb. he even re-did the ox for me too (now it dosen't look all fucked up). thank you louie again and again (even if you confused me this mornin'--you're still the bomb man!!) ahhhhh, i'm happy now. *MWA* 11/34

Saturday, August 16, 2003

saying good bye. . . so this weekend i put my one and only desktop computer in babygirl and we drove home. . . monitor and all. she went to her new mommy this morning. *sigh* she was the first computer that i bought, the first one i used to irc (in color & SOUNDS!!--that was a trip), created (for lack of a better word) my first web page, wrote papers on her, did research. . . basically she got me through college. she was the one i used when i first started this blog. . . she's old, but she's still good. so i pass her on to my girl Lani, the adoption was finally complete. she might not be able to use netscape (since she's so old, she can't open the fancy pages anymore) but explorer works just as good. she went through an upgrade from 95 - 98 then back to 95 (not one of my best ideas). i had to get one of my friends to re-format her (thanks pauly!!), she completely broke down. . . but she got better. . . only a week of separation then she was back in business. she was there for all the good times and the bad, but in the end she was working better than ever. only has 25% more free mem, but i'm sure once Lan takes off netscape she'll be good once again. *sigh* it's really hard to let your babies go, but i had too. . . she was just sitting in my hallway all boxed up, i was neglecting her but i just didn't know where i should of taken her. *sigh* i feel better now, Lani will take good care of her. . . and i can talk to Lan online now. daymn, i remember those days. . . staying up till 4 or so just talking to everyone on irc--from new york to the bay. we would eat our dinners in front of the computer. . . i would rush home from school (after all those daymn night school classes), say hi to the family, grab some din-din. . . and turn her on. or i would log on just to find Lani or my other friends and see if they wanted to go to starbucks. . . i could have just as easily picked up the phone--but what fun is that? 'cause unlike some other "internet chatters" we all actually knew each other, and hung out whenever possible--albeit tours of the bay, dinners, movies, clubbing, watching the guys play bond, or daygo bonfires!! road trip anyone?? ahhhh the memories. i miss those days. so i shall bid adieu to my babygirl desktop. *tear* i miss you already. *sigh* *MWA* 18/34

Sunday, August 10, 2003

playing defense what's the one thing all great teams have in common? . . . defense. see unlike scoring defense never quits. but to play great defense you need one thing above all else. . . confidence. listen, if you learn nothing else while you're here you learn this. . . alright? this is not just about hockey. it's easy to be confident when you have control of the puck, it's very very difficult to keep that confidence when you gotta take whatever strange bounces life throws your way. . . don't be careless--but don't be too careful either!! you cannot be afraid to lose!! that's how you gain the confidence to ATTACK the game when the puck isin't yours. that's how you attack life. even when you think you don't have any control. . . and thats how you play real defense. 24/34

Wednesday, August 06, 2003

The Road to Enlightenment - The Teachings of Zen 1. Do not walk behind me, for I may not lead. Do not walk ahead of me, for I may not follow. Do not walk beside me for the path is narrow. In fact, just fuck off and leave me alone. 2. The journey of a thousand miles begins with a broken fan belt and a flat tire. 3. The darkest hour is just before dawn. So if you're going to steal your neighbor's milk, that's the time to do it. 4. Sex is like air. It's not important unless you aren't getting any. 5. Don't be irreplaceable. If you can't be replaced, you can't be promoted. 6. No one is listening until you fart. 7. Always remember you're unique. Just like everyone else. 8. Never test the depth of the water with both feet. 9. If you think nobody cares whether you're alive or dead, try missing a couple of mortgage payments. 10. Before you criticize someone, you should walk a mile in their shoes. That way, when you criticize them, you're a mile away and you have their shoes. 11. If at first you don't succeed, skydiving is not for you. 12. Give a man a fish and he will eat for a day. Teach him how to fish, and he will sit in a boat and drink beer all day. 13. If you lend someone $20 and never see that person again, it was probably worth it. 14. If you tell the truth, you don't have to remember anything. 15. Some days you are the bug; some days you are the windshield. 16. Don't worry; it only seems kinky the first time. 17. Good judgment comes from bad experience, and a lot of that comes from bad judgment. 18. The quickest way to double your money is to fold it in half and put it back in your pocket. 19. A closed mouth gathers no foot. 20. Duct tape is like the Force. It has a light side and a dark side, and it holds the universe together. 21. There are two theories to arguing with women. Neither one works. 22. Generally speaking, you aren't learning much when your lips are moving. 23. Experience is something you don't get until just after you need it. * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * got this email from my friend mike and i could not stop laughing after the first one, so i'm sharing this all with you. enjoy! *MWA* 28/34