Sunday, January 15, 2017


So I finally went to my annual doctors appointment to face the truth, I gained weight over this past year. After 2 years of keeping it down, I packed on 5 more lbs & that doctors scale was so painful to look at. I know this past year was full of change & painful things...but it's no excuse.

So I made up some goals for myself, which are the following:
Minimize sugar
Drink 2 of my big bottle of water a day
Focus on macros & lower my calorie intake
Don't push off my long runs (even when I am not feeling it)
Weigh myself truthfully even when I don't like what I see
Less cheat days
No fast food

That's all I have so far, I think that's a good list. Oh man, oh man. I'll get my labs soon & I'll take my Mammy on Monday. Health is so very important & I need to keep it up. If you're small like me, 5 lbs is a. If deal...


Tuesday, January 03, 2017

On the last day of my 42nd year

On the last day as a 42 year old this is what I have learned. You should never expect or have expectations from anyone, you'll get disappointed. I learned who my real people are this year. Death, is very hard to move forward from, I'm still trying, I miss K so much. 

If you keep pursuing your dreams, you'll achieve them. I finally got my L to my CSW. I can pretty much work all shifts in Crisis & probably at the MHCB (Mental Health Crisis Bed at CDCR). I can also assess the hell out of 5150 pts & suicidal/homicidal inmate/patients. In order to learn all of that, I had to take myself out of my comfort 16 months as the NOC Shift Crisis Intervention Specialist at Natividad Hospital. But hell, it might have sucked, I worked all the holidays, & weekends, lost sleep & barely saw my family (BUT I was there when you needed me most, thanks to all the vacation I earned)...I learned. 

My self care is still the same, I run, every single day. Especially when we lost K. I ran even more. I'm actually getting back my speed. It was so nice to hear her say that she admired my running & yoga. I appreciated it more since she's a PT & understood my need to keep at it. So for all of you who don't care for my workout posts, I don't care about that, people have reasons why we do things & this year especially, I needed more of my self care. 

So as I embark on my 43rd year of life, I will do more things. Try more things. Go on an actual vacation where I go on a plane. I know two trips so far, but I still want to go to Hawaii. I'm working on my passport for the Philippines trip & I'm running Chi-town in October. I will get all my CEU's done & I want to be trained in DBT & CBT officially. There's so much more that I want to do, but mostly, be there for my family & friends. 

But this year was significant in so many ways. Lots & lots of learning lessons. I learned the truth. Let's just say that. Thank you all for being a part of it...AND if I learned a lesson from you, good or bad, thank you.