Monday, April 28, 2003

Sunday, April 27, 2003

got this from a friend. . . The true measure of compatibility is not the years spent together, but how good you are for each other. Love isn`t about becoming somebody else`s "perfect person." It`s about finding someone who helps you become the best person you can be. Heartbreaks last as long as you want and cut deep as you allow them to go. The challenge is not how to survive heartbreaks but to learn from them. How to be in love: Fall but don`t stumble, be consistent but not too persistent,share and never be unfair, understand and try not to demand, and get hurt but never keep the pain. True love cannot be found where it does not truly exist, nor can it be hidden where it truly does. Love is magic. The more we hide it, the more it shows; the more you suppress it, the more it grows. Never say I love if you don`t care. Never talk about feelings if they aren`t there. Never touch a life if you mean to break a heart. Never look in the eye when you do is lie. The cruelest thing a guy can do to a girl is to let her fall in love when he doesn`t intend to catch her fall. (same for a girl to a guy) It breaks your heart to see the one you love happy with someone else but it`s more painful to know that the one you love is unhappy with you. Love hurts when you break up with someone. It hurts even more when someone breaks up with you. But love hurts the most when the person you love has no idea how you feel. A sad thing about life is that when you meet someone who means a lot to you, only to find out in the end that it was never bound to be and we just have to let go. Love is like a butterfly. The more you chase it, the more it eludes you. But if you just let it fly, it would come to you when you least expect it. Love can make you happy but often times it hurts, but love`s only special when you give it to someone who is worth. So take your time and choose the best. (words by Steph L) * * * * * * * * * * * it's all relative. . .

Thursday, April 24, 2003

the bestest friends in the world do any of you have a friend that no matter how far you go, or no matter how much time is spent apart. . . the moment you do get together, it's as if you guys were never apart? that's why i love shannie so much. i headed over to her pad after work today, and i just feel so much better now. she just knows me to daymn well, that's what the problem is. but hey, that's why i love her so daymn much. it's funny, you can give someone advice when they're going through things, but when you're going through a similar situation. . . you can't give yourself the same advice. you always need another party to show you the error of your ways. why is that anyway? arrggghhhhhh, i hate that, i so hate that. but i'm glad that i have someone to point that out to me. i might not have a whole lot of friends, but the ones that i do are the best ever. it's all about quality baby! *snap* now i have too much going on in my head. unanswered questions and all that crap. eh, it'll all come together. . . you'll see. i love her, and i love all my beautiful friends. i might not show it, but i do. anyway, not to get off the subject (like i ever do that), but. . . i would just like to say that since i don't make you people read whatever i have to say, then you do have the option to look elsewhere for your blogging entertainment. i realize that i won't please everyone, and that's really not the point of this. i actually don't care, but hey, why hate. really, what's the point? but, hey. . . to each his own. . . and i have wasted enough time on my sidenote. so back to the subject at hand. i'm so glad that i am surrounded by people who love me, just the way i am. it's the greatest feeling in the world i tell you. gotta love it! so with that said, i shall bid you all adieu. NITE!! *MWA*

Wednesday, April 23, 2003

thought this was nice To laugh is to risk being a fool. To weep is to risk appearing sentimental. To reach out to another is to risk involvement. To express feelings is to risk exposing your true self. To place your ideas, your dreams, before the crowd Is to risk their loss. To love is to risk not being loved in return. To live is to risk dying. To hope is to risk despair. To try is to risk failure. The person who risks nothing, Does nothing, Has nothing and is nothing. They may avoid suffering and sorrow, But they simply cannot learn, Feel, change, grow, love or live. Risks must be taken because, The greatest hazard in life is to risk nothing. Only a person who risks is free. - Leo Buscaglia * * * * * * * * * * ya know?

Wednesday, April 16, 2003

molly dog on adopt-a-pet they were showing this dog. . . a black and white pup named molly. i miss molly dog now. she's somewhere up in doggy heaven. i know tootse is with us now. . . but i still miss molly. i grew up with molly, she knew how to wake me up. . . was the first one who greeted me, whether i was coming home from being out and about, from work, school, or coming back from la. i miss her. . . i want her back. . . i wish i had a chance to say good-bye.

Tuesday, April 15, 2003

the green dog 1. I love you not because of who you are, but because of who I am when I am with you. 2. No man or woman is worth your tears, and the one who is, won't make you cry. 3. Just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to, doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have. 4. A true friend is someone who reaches for your hand and touches your heart. 5. The worst way to miss someone is to be sitting right beside them knowing you can't have them. 6. Never frown, even when you are sad, because you never know who is falling in love with your smile. 7. To the world you may be one person, but to one person you may be the world. 8. Don't waste your time on a man/woman, who isn't willing to waste their time on you. 9. Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right one, so that when we finally meet the! person, we will know how to be grateful. 10. Don't cry because it is over, smile because it happened. 11. There's always going to be people that hurt you so what you have to do is keep on trusting and just be more careful about who you trust next time around. 12. Make yourself a better person and know who you are before you try and know someone else and expect them to know you. fyi. . .this line has been claimed by paul 13. Don't try so hard, the best things come when you least expect them to. REMEMBER: WHATEVER HAPPENS, HAPPENS FOR A REASON. True friends: How many people actually have 8 true friends? Hardly anyone I know ! But some of us have all right friends and good friends!!! You have been Tagged by the Green Dog! ,-._,-. \/)"(\/ (_o_) ruff!!!!!! * * * * * * * * * * got this from shan earlier. . . i so love her.

Thursday, April 10, 2003

keep this in mind ladies A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE �one old love she can imagine going back to...and one who reminds her how far she has come... A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ....enough money within her control to move out and rent a place of her own even if she never wants to or needs to... A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ...something perfect to wear if the employer or date of her dreams wants to see her in an hour... A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ..a youth she's content to leave behind... A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ...a past juicy enough that she's looking forward to retelling it in her old age.... A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ...a set of screwdrivers, cordless drill, and a black lace bra... A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE friend who always makes her laugh... and one who lets her cry... A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ...a good piece of furniture not previously owned by anyone else in her family... A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ...eight matching plates, wine glasses with stems, and a recipe for a meal that will make her guests feel honored.. A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ...a feeling of control over her destiny... EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW... to fall in love without losing herself... EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW... to quit a job, break up with a lover, and confront a friend without ruining the friendship... EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW... ...when to try harder...and when to walk away... EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW... ...that she can't change the length of her calves, the width of her hips, or the nature of her parents... EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW... ...that her childhood may not have been perfect...but its over... EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW... ...what she would and wouldn't do for love or more... EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW... to live alone... even if she doesn't like it... EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW... ...whom she can trust, whom she can't, and why she shouldn't take it personally... EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW... ..where to it to her best friend's kitchen table...or a charming inn in the woods...when her soul needs soothing... EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW... ....what she can and can't accomplish in a day...a month...and a year... * * * * * * * * * * got this from my girl sandra. . . some of these are so daymn true.

Tuesday, April 01, 2003

reminisce over you. . . it's funny how time flies, funny how things turn out. i never thought i'd move to la, i thought i was a strictly bay area girl. i was actually planning on moving up to the city. . . who knew. i know i wanted to go somewhere, just never knew where i'd end up. . . but who does? *wonder* i was watching my jac tapes last night. just got #21 (the one i made) the other day (thanks dean!!), and i've had #30 (the retreat i directed), ever since the reunion of that retreat. funny how one changes over the years. what was i thinking?? and the hair?? my dear lord. man, time really changes people. some people don't get affected so much, but man. . . hella different. not just in looks either, man, i thought i was so cool. . . heh, now i know better. whew, no one's seeing that tape! well 30 is okay, but not 21. man! what a difference years make. seriously. i wonder what everyone will be/look like in 10 more years. . . let's see if i make it to my 20 year reunion (i actually made it to 10, man i'm old). it's just funny how everyone was back then, compared to now. years give you experience, and that experience makes you grow. . . i guess. shoot, look at me now. if only i can take that and possibly shoot up a couple of inches. now that would be bomb. interesting. be nice today all. . . no mean or inappropriate april fools. *MWA* "my weakness, is my sweetness" *repeat* 4x