i am beautiful, no matter what they say.... words can't bring me down. the calm after the storm, the agony after the defeat, the pain after the numbness, letting it all go. the pain in my chest, has left me. paranoia is gone. breathing has become easier. i can sleep a deep sleep. i feel sane once again. i feel again. and i am excellent (good, okay, amazing, beautiful). * * * * * * * * **edit: i have come to the realization that with time .... everything gets better.