manong merrick & jen's wedding so it took us 4 friken hours to get to daygo! so yes, we missed the ceremony all together. but it's okay, i was forgiven. haven't seen some of these people in years, so yes. . . a good time was had by all. shannon had the table rolling (she's the best date ever!!), of course the wine helped. we made some new friends who incidentally are from jersey. . . grace & erickson (grace still lives in jersey & erickson lives in daygo). i didn't really have a chance to talk to manong (of course), but i had a mini-chat with him during the money dance. i'm sooooo happy for him, i know he wanted this for a while. so on that note, here's the happy couple. . . want more? click here! 3/34

seven days. . .

the third installation so there you have it. . . my trilogy is complete. thank you steve from outer limits. . . you're soooooo the bomb. he even re-did the ox for me too (now it dosen't look all fucked up). thank you louie again and again (even if you confused me this mornin'--you're still the bomb man!!) ahhhhh, i'm happy now. *MWA* 11/34

saying good bye. . . so this weekend i put my one and only desktop computer in babygirl and we drove home. . . monitor and all. she went to her new mommy this morning. *sigh* she was the first computer that i bought, the first one i used to irc (in color & SOUNDS!!--that was a trip), created (for lack of a better word) my first web page, wrote papers on her, did research. . . basically she got me through college. she was the one i used when i first started this blog. . . she's old, but she's still good. so i pass her on to my girl Lani, the adoption was finally complete. she might not be able to use netscape (since she's so old, she can't open the fancy pages anymore) but explorer works just as good. she went through an upgrade from 95 - 98 then back to 95 (not one of my best ideas). i had to get one of my friends to re-format her (thanks pauly!!), she completely broke down. . . but she got better. . . only a week of separation then she was back in business. she was there for all the good times and the bad, but in the end she was working better than ever. only has 25% more free mem, but i'm sure once Lan takes off netscape she'll be good once again. *sigh* it's really hard to let your babies go, but i had too. . . she was just sitting in my hallway all boxed up, i was neglecting her but i just didn't know where i should of taken her. *sigh* i feel better now, Lani will take good care of her. . . and i can talk to Lan online now. daymn, i remember those days. . . staying up till 4 or so just talking to everyone on irc--from new york to the bay. we would eat our dinners in front of the computer. . . i would rush home from school (after all those daymn night school classes), say hi to the family, grab some din-din. . . and turn her on. or i would log on just to find Lani or my other friends and see if they wanted to go to starbucks. . . i could have just as easily picked up the phone--but what fun is that? 'cause unlike some other "internet chatters" we all actually knew each other, and hung out whenever possible--albeit tours of the bay, dinners, movies, clubbing, watching the guys play bond, or daygo bonfires!! road trip anyone?? ahhhh the memories. i miss those days. so i shall bid adieu to my babygirl desktop. *tear* i miss you already. *sigh* *MWA* 18/34

playing defense what's the one thing all great teams have in common? . . . defense. see unlike scoring defense never quits. but to play great defense you need one thing above all else. . . confidence. listen, if you learn nothing else while you're here you learn this. . . alright? this is not just about hockey. it's easy to be confident when you have control of the puck, it's very very difficult to keep that confidence when you gotta take whatever strange bounces life throws your way. . . don't be careless--but don't be too careful either!! you cannot be afraid to lose!! that's how you gain the confidence to ATTACK the game when the puck isin't yours. that's how you attack life. even when you think you don't have any control. . . and thats how you play real defense. 24/34

The Road to Enlightenment - The Teachings of Zen 1. Do not walk behind me, for I may not lead. Do not walk ahead of me, for I may not follow. Do not walk beside me for the path is narrow. In fact, just fuck off and leave me alone. 2. The journey of a thousand miles begins with a broken fan belt and a flat tire. 3. The darkest hour is just before dawn. So if you're going to steal your neighbor's milk, that's the time to do it. 4. Sex is like air. It's not important unless you aren't getting any. 5. Don't be irreplaceable. If you can't be replaced, you can't be promoted. 6. No one is listening until you fart. 7. Always remember you're unique. Just like everyone else. 8. Never test the depth of the water with both feet. 9. If you think nobody cares whether you're alive or dead, try missing a couple of mortgage payments. 10. Before you criticize someone, you should walk a mile in their shoes. That way, when you criticize them, you're a mile away and you have their shoes. 11. If at first you don't succeed, skydiving is not for you. 12. Give a man a fish and he will eat for a day. Teach him how to fish, and he will sit in a boat and drink beer all day. 13. If you lend someone $20 and never see that person again, it was probably worth it. 14. If you tell the truth, you don't have to remember anything. 15. Some days you are the bug; some days you are the windshield. 16. Don't worry; it only seems kinky the first time. 17. Good judgment comes from bad experience, and a lot of that comes from bad judgment. 18. The quickest way to double your money is to fold it in half and put it back in your pocket. 19. A closed mouth gathers no foot. 20. Duct tape is like the Force. It has a light side and a dark side, and it holds the universe together. 21. There are two theories to arguing with women. Neither one works. 22. Generally speaking, you aren't learning much when your lips are moving. 23. Experience is something you don't get until just after you need it. * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * got this email from my friend mike and i could not stop laughing after the first one, so i'm sharing this all with you. enjoy! *MWA* 28/34

seasons change you know sometimes (or so i'm told). . .you wake up. things that used to bother you, don't. or things that you thought mattered, well. . .don't. i take that back--of course they matter (it's just not so much). it's normal for things to change like the seasons (it's just sad when they do). but you welcome the change because new things seem to pop up from out of nowhere. i think. . .earlier this week i woke up. one of my friends told me i would and i didn't believe him (but i did). so now i'm welcoming new things, changes if you will. hell, i'll be in jersey in 33 days and counting. so yeah. i think i'm actually happy now. not content. . .actually happy. the seasons change, people change. . . as expose sang it best, "Seasons change, feelings change. It's been so long since I found you, yet it seems like yesterday. Seasons change, people change." ahh, the times they are a changing my friend. adieu. 33/34 p.s. thanks dean. . . for the lesson. i'll keep it in mind for next time!