random lines [2] that shit's played out like an 8 track. when that jones come down come down like a muthafucka. this is a destiny type thing, baby. whatcha wanna do? you only get two. . . love is what you make and who you make it with. love, passion, it is, what it is. you always want what you want, when you want it. . . . let me tell you something this here, right now, is all that matters to me. i love you. that's urgent like a muthafucka.

a blues for nina say baby, can i be your slave i've got to admit girl, you're the shit girl and i'm diggin` you like a grave now do they call you daughter to the spinnin post, or or maybe queen of 10,000 moons sister to the distant, yet risin` star is your name yimmy-ya oh hell nah, it`s got to be ocean ooo, is that a smile me put on your face child wide as a field of jasmine and glover talk that talk honey, walk that walk money hound legs that'll spank jehovah shit, who am i? it's not important but they call me brother to the night and right now i'm the blues in your left thigh tryin to become the funk in your right who am I? i'll be whoever you say but right now, i'm the sigh traped hunter blindly pursuing you as my prey and i just wanna give you injections, of sublime erections and get you to dance to my rhythm make you dream archaetypes, of black angels in flight upon wings, of distorted, contorted, metaphoric jism come on slim fuck yo` man, i ain`t worried about him it's you who i wanna step to my scene cause rather than deal with the fallacy of this dry ass reality i rather dance and romance your sweet ass, in a wet dream who am I? well they all call me brother to the night and right now, i'm the blues in your left thigh trying to become the funk in your right is that alright? * * * * * * * * * * * i love this movie, darius is so cool. . . i don't care if he's only a character, he's fresh.

romance, is about the possibility of a thing you see, it's about the time between when you meet some fine ass woman and when you first make love to her or when you first ask a woman to marry you and when she says i do. when people who've been together for a long time say the romance is gone uhh um, what they're really saying is they've exhausted the possibility. . . . . . . . . . . it's like poetry it's the possiblity of language. * * * * * * * * * * i love this movie. any guesses?

the little things are infinitely important -sir arthur conan doyle

got this from a really good friend A good woman is proud of herself. She respects herself and others. She is aware of who she is. She neither seeks definition from the person she is with, nor does she expect them to read her mind. She is quite capable of articulating her needs. A good woman is hopeful. She is strong enough to make all her dreams come true. She knows love, therefore she gives love. She recognizes that her love has a great value and must be reciprocated. If her love is taken for granted, it soon disappears. A good woman has a dash of inspiration and a dabble of endurance. She knows that she will, at times, have to inspire others to reach the potential God gave them. A good woman knows her past, understands her present and moves toward the future. A good woman knows God. She knows that with God the world is her playground, but without God she will just be played. A good woman does not live in fear of the future because of her past. Instead, she understands that her life experiences are merely lessons, meant to bring her closer to self knowledge and unconditional self love. I just sent this to a good woman ............... why don't you? * * * * * * * * * * so true, my friend. *mwa*

serendipity you have to have faith. . . in destiny.

got this from a friend. . . The true measure of compatibility is not the years spent together, but how good you are for each other. Love isn`t about becoming somebody else`s "perfect person." It`s about finding someone who helps you become the best person you can be. Heartbreaks last as long as you want and cut deep as you allow them to go. The challenge is not how to survive heartbreaks but to learn from them. How to be in love: Fall but don`t stumble, be consistent but not too persistent,share and never be unfair, understand and try not to demand, and get hurt but never keep the pain. True love cannot be found where it does not truly exist, nor can it be hidden where it truly does. Love is magic. The more we hide it, the more it shows; the more you suppress it, the more it grows. Never say I love if you don`t care. Never talk about feelings if they aren`t there. Never touch a life if you mean to break a heart. Never look in the eye when you do is lie. The cruelest thing a guy can do to a girl is to let her fall in love when he doesn`t intend to catch her fall. (same for a girl to a guy) It breaks your heart to see the one you love happy with someone else but it`s more painful to know that the one you love is unhappy with you. Love hurts when you break up with someone. It hurts even more when someone breaks up with you. But love hurts the most when the person you love has no idea how you feel. A sad thing about life is that when you meet someone who means a lot to you, only to find out in the end that it was never bound to be and we just have to let go. Love is like a butterfly. The more you chase it, the more it eludes you. But if you just let it fly, it would come to you when you least expect it. Love can make you happy but often times it hurts, but love`s only special when you give it to someone who is worth. So take your time and choose the best. (words by Steph L) * * * * * * * * * * * it's all relative. . .

the bestest friends in the world do any of you have a friend that no matter how far you go, or no matter how much time is spent apart. . . the moment you do get together, it's as if you guys were never apart? that's why i love shannie so much. i headed over to her pad after work today, and i just feel so much better now. she just knows me to daymn well, that's what the problem is. but hey, that's why i love her so daymn much. it's funny, you can give someone advice when they're going through things, but when you're going through a similar situation. . . you can't give yourself the same advice. you always need another party to show you the error of your ways. why is that anyway? arrggghhhhhh, i hate that, i so hate that. but i'm glad that i have someone to point that out to me. i might not have a whole lot of friends, but the ones that i do are the best ever. it's all about quality baby! *snap* now i have too much going on in my head. unanswered questions and all that crap. eh, it'll all come together. . . you'll see. i love her, and i love all my beautiful friends. i might not show it, but i do. anyway, not to get off the subject (like i ever do that), but. . . i would just like to say that since i don't make you people read whatever i have to say, then you do have the option to look elsewhere for your blogging entertainment. i realize that i won't please everyone, and that's really not the point of this. i actually don't care, but hey, why hate. really, what's the point? but, hey. . . to each his own. . . and i have wasted enough time on my sidenote. so back to the subject at hand. i'm so glad that i am surrounded by people who love me, just the way i am. it's the greatest feeling in the world i tell you. gotta love it! so with that said, i shall bid you all adieu. NITE!! *MWA*

thought this was nice To laugh is to risk being a fool. To weep is to risk appearing sentimental. To reach out to another is to risk involvement. To express feelings is to risk exposing your true self. To place your ideas, your dreams, before the crowd Is to risk their loss. To love is to risk not being loved in return. To live is to risk dying. To hope is to risk despair. To try is to risk failure. The person who risks nothing, Does nothing, Has nothing and is nothing. They may avoid suffering and sorrow, But they simply cannot learn, Feel, change, grow, love or live. Risks must be taken because, The greatest hazard in life is to risk nothing. Only a person who risks is free. - Leo Buscaglia * * * * * * * * * * ya know?

molly dog on adopt-a-pet they were showing this dog. . . a black and white pup named molly. i miss molly dog now. she's somewhere up in doggy heaven. i know tootse is with us now. . . but i still miss molly. i grew up with molly, she knew how to wake me up. . . was the first one who greeted me, whether i was coming home from being out and about, from work, school, or coming back from la. i miss her. . . i want her back. . . i wish i had a chance to say good-bye.

the green dog 1. I love you not because of who you are, but because of who I am when I am with you. 2. No man or woman is worth your tears, and the one who is, won't make you cry. 3. Just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to, doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have. 4. A true friend is someone who reaches for your hand and touches your heart. 5. The worst way to miss someone is to be sitting right beside them knowing you can't have them. 6. Never frown, even when you are sad, because you never know who is falling in love with your smile. 7. To the world you may be one person, but to one person you may be the world. 8. Don't waste your time on a man/woman, who isn't willing to waste their time on you. 9. Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right one, so that when we finally meet the! person, we will know how to be grateful. 10. Don't cry because it is over, smile because it happened. 11. There's always going to be people that hurt you so what you have to do is keep on trusting and just be more careful about who you trust next time around. 12. Make yourself a better person and know who you are before you try and know someone else and expect them to know you. fyi. . .this line has been claimed by paul 13. Don't try so hard, the best things come when you least expect them to. REMEMBER: WHATEVER HAPPENS, HAPPENS FOR A REASON. True friends: How many people actually have 8 true friends? Hardly anyone I know ! But some of us have all right friends and good friends!!! You have been Tagged by the Green Dog! ,-._,-. \/)"(\/ (_o_) ruff!!!!!! * * * * * * * * * * got this from shan earlier. . . i so love her.

keep this in mind ladies A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE �one old love she can imagine going back to...and one who reminds her how far she has come... A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ....enough money within her control to move out and rent a place of her own even if she never wants to or needs to... A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ...something perfect to wear if the employer or date of her dreams wants to see her in an hour... A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ..a youth she's content to leave behind... A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ...a past juicy enough that she's looking forward to retelling it in her old age.... A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ...a set of screwdrivers, cordless drill, and a black lace bra... A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ..one friend who always makes her laugh... and one who lets her cry... A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ...a good piece of furniture not previously owned by anyone else in her family... A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ...eight matching plates, wine glasses with stems, and a recipe for a meal that will make her guests feel honored.. A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ...a feeling of control over her destiny... EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW... ..how to fall in love without losing herself... EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW... ..how to quit a job, break up with a lover, and confront a friend without ruining the friendship... EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW... ...when to try harder...and when to walk away... EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW... ...that she can't change the length of her calves, the width of her hips, or the nature of her parents... EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW... ...that her childhood may not have been perfect...but its over... EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW... ...what she would and wouldn't do for love or more... EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW... ..how to live alone... even if she doesn't like it... EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW... ...whom she can trust, whom she can't, and why she shouldn't take it personally... EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW... ..where to go...be it to her best friend's kitchen table...or a charming inn in the woods...when her soul needs soothing... EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW... ....what she can and can't accomplish in a day...a month...and a year... * * * * * * * * * * got this from my girl sandra. . . some of these are so daymn true.

reminisce over you. . . it's funny how time flies, funny how things turn out. i never thought i'd move to la, i thought i was a strictly bay area girl. i was actually planning on moving up to the city. . . who knew. i know i wanted to go somewhere, just never knew where i'd end up. . . but who does? *wonder* i was watching my jac tapes last night. just got #21 (the one i made) the other day (thanks dean!!), and i've had #30 (the retreat i directed), ever since the reunion of that retreat. funny how one changes over the years. what was i thinking?? and the hair?? my dear lord. man, time really changes people. some people don't get affected so much, but man. . . hella different. not just in looks either, man, i thought i was so cool. . . heh, now i know better. whew, no one's seeing that tape! well 30 is okay, but not 21. man! what a difference years make. seriously. i wonder what everyone will be/look like in 10 more years. . . let's see if i make it to my 20 year reunion (i actually made it to 10, man i'm old). it's just funny how everyone was back then, compared to now. years give you experience, and that experience makes you grow. . . i guess. shoot, look at me now. if only i can take that and possibly shoot up a couple of inches. now that would be bomb. interesting. be nice today all. . . no mean or inappropriate april fools. *MWA* "my weakness, is my sweetness" *repeat* 4x

things to keep in mind a good friend told me last night. . . it's not what's wrong with me. . . what's wrong with them???

I guess sometimes insomnia is good. . . interesting conversations are brought about by old friends.

Why? *btw insomnia sucks

here's more. . . couldn't stop cracking up, bet my office mate thinks i've gone mad. The sex was so good that even the neighbors had a cigarette. If you smoke after sex, you're doing it too fast. I don't suffer from insanity, I enjoy every minute of it. If ignorance is bliss, you must be orgasmic. Good girls get fat, bad girls get eaten. Born free... taxed to death. The more people I meet, the more I like my dog. Some people are alive only because it's illegal to kill them. A bartender is just a pharmacist with a limited inventory. A cat almost always blinks when hit in the head with a ball peen hammer. I used to have a handle on life, but it broke. Don't take life too seriously, you won't get out alive. WANTED: Meaningful overnight relationship. If you can read this, I've lost my trailer. You're just jealous because the voices only talk to me. BEER: It's not just for breakfast anymore. I got a gun for my wife, best trade I've ever made. So you're a feminist...Isn't that cute! Anyone can give up smoking, but it takes a real man to face cancer. If: a two-letter word for futility I don't care, I don't have to. Beauty is in the eye of the beer holder. Earth is the insane asylum for the universe. To all you virgins, thanks for nothing. I'm not a complete idiot, some parts are missing. Horn broken, watch for finger. All men are idiots ... I married their king. The more you complain, the longer God lets you live. My kid had sex with your honor student. Earth first...we'll mine the other planets later. Give pizza chants. Don't hit me. My lawyer's in jail. This isn't burger king, you can't have it your way. How can I be overdrawn, I still have checks! If something goes without saying, LET IT! If at first you do succeed, try not to look astonished. Help wanted telepath: you know where to apply Work is for people who don't know how to fish. IRS We've got what it takes to take what you've got. Hard work has a future payoff, laziness pays off now. Life's a buffet... so eat me! I'm just driving this way to piss you off. If you don't like the way I drive, get off the sidewalk. Reality is a crutch for people who can't handle drugs. Missing your cat? Try looking under my tires. I love cats ... dead ones I love cats ... they taste just like chicken Out of my mind. Back in five minutes. Where are we going? And why are we in this handbasket? I want to be like Barbie, that bitch has everything. Keep honking, I'm reloading. Cover me. I'm changing lanes. Prevent inbreeding: ban country music. As long as there are tests, there will be prayer in public schools. Spotted owl taste just like chicken. Hang up and drive. Happiness is a belt-fed weapon. Laugh alone and the world thinks you're an idiot. Snatch a kiss, or vice versa. I don't have to be dead to donate my organ. WARNING! Driver only carries $20.00 in ammunition. This would be really funny if it wasn't happening to me. I have the body of a god... Buddha! I get enough exercise pushing my luck. Auntie Em- Hate you, hate Kansas, taking dog. Dorothy If you don't like the news, go out and make your own. Sometimes I wake up grumpy; other times I let her sleep Guns don't kill people... but they make it real easy. I want to die in my sleep like my grandfather ... Not screaming and yelling like the passengers in his car. Tow-ers will be violated If at first you do succeed, try not to look astonished. Reality is a crutch for people who can't handle drugs. Guns don't kill people, postal workers do. Ask me about microwaving cats for fun and profit. I said "no" to drugs, but they just wouldn't listen. Friends don't let Friends drive Naked. If we aren't supposed to eat animals, why are they made of meat? Lottery: A tax on people who are bad at math. Friends help you move. Real friends help you move bodies. Diplomacy is the art of saying 'Nice doggie!'... till you can find a rock. Sex on television can't hurt you... unless you fall off

so okay, got this off my message board: One liners for the stressed and irritated 1."Okay, okay! I take it back. Unf**k you!!!" 2. "You say I'm a bitch like it's a bad thing?!" 3. "How many times do I have to flush before you go away?" 4. "Well this day was a total waste of make-up" 5. "Well aren't we a Bloody ray of sunshine?" 6. "Don't bother me, I'm living happily ever after." 7. "Do I look like a f**king people's person!?" 8. "This isn't an office. It's HELL with fluorescent lighting" 9. "I started out with nothing & still have most of it left" 10. "I pretend to work, they pretend to pay me" 11. "YOU!!... off my planet!!!" 12. "Therapy is expensive. Popping bubble plastic is cheap. You choose" 13. "Practise random acts of intelligence and senseless acts of self-control" 14. "Errors have been made. Others will be blamed" 15. "And your cry-baby, whiny-assed opinion would be.....?" 16. "I'm not crazy. I've been in a very bad mood for 30 years." 17. "Sarcasm is just one more service I offer." 18. "Whatever kind of look you were going for, you missed" 19. "Do they ever shut up on your planet?" 20. "I'm not your type. I'm not inflatable" 21. "Stress is when you wake up screaming and you realise you haven't gone to sleep yet" 22. "Back off!! You're standing in my aura." 23. "Don't worry. I forgot your name too." 24. "I just want revenge. Is that so wrong?" 25. "I work 45 hours a week to be this poor." 26. "Nice perfume. Must you marinate in it." 27. "Not all men are annoying. Some are dead." 28. "Wait...I'm trying to imagine you with a personality" 29. "Chaos, panic and disorder . . . my work here is done." 30. "Ambivalent? Well yes and no." 31. "You look like shit. Is that the style now?" 32. "Earth is full. Go home." 33. "Aw, did I step on your poor itty bitty ego?" 34. "I'm not tense, just terribly, terribly alert." 35. "A hard-on doesn't count as personal growth." I couldn't stop laughing. . . good shit right there. wheeeeeee!!!! *mwahs*

I never realized how much my brother and I look alike until I got my pictures in the mail today. That was a fun trip. Good time was had by all. Bear this weekend, fun fun fun!

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okay, almost forgot GUNG HOI FAT CHOI!! HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!! (Belated) So here's to a better year than the last, much luck and success in career, love, personal life, dreams. . . etc. HAPPY NEW YEAR!! Yay, my apartments clean . . . but I did it the day after . . . does that count? I sure hope so. I know I cleaned up the pad before new years, and this time around is the day after. Oh wells, at least she's clean . . . all that matters. Sucks that it had to be the same day Columbia exploded. Great, now i'm sad. Happy New Year, yet a tragedy occured. Sad that has to happen. I think i'll go now. Don't really know what to say. *sigh* Good night, I shall bid you all adieu. *mwa*