Dear Capricorn, you seem to like to hide your feelings and your emotional needs from other people. You really need to be able to trust other people in order to share your feeling with them. They seem to have to guess at your deepest secrets. Yet, today you could save a lot of time in your love life, if you would just accept to tell your partner what you want out of your relationship, or even what you would like to change about it. Talk about it. Your partner is listening... * * * * * * * * * * man, sometimes these things are right on the money.

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dream weaver I've just closed my eyes again Climbed aboard the dream weaver train Driver take away my worries of today And leave tomorrow behind (chorus) Ooh dream weaver I believe you can get me through the night Ooh dream weaver I believe we can reach the morning light Fly me high through the starry skies Maybe to an astral plane Cross the highways of fantasy Help me to forget todays pain (chorus again) Though the dawn may be coming soon There still may be some time Fly me away to the bright side of the moon And meet me on the other side (chorus again, then fade out with the following repeated several times...)

i want this i want this, i want this, i want this, i want this...and if no one gets it for me for my christmas or birthday...i'm gonna get it for myself dammit. but i don't know if i want burgandy or black and white...but i want it. i have an idea...everyone can chip in and get it for me! yah...heheh this WILL be on my list! =D

HAPPY HALLOWEEN have a great weekend everyone, watch out for the kids...and DON'T steal their candy!! go get your own! well, if you can go to the grocery store w/ out crossing a picket line. HA =D hahahah *mwah*

BIG BEAR MOUNTAIN RESORTS As of 1:00 p.m. on Thursday October 30th, it is looking as though the Big Bear Valley including Snow Summit and Bear Mountain will NOT be affected by fire. Emergency and fire crews have done an amazing job preventing the fires from reaching Big Bear. A change in weather has helped and the latest forecast is even suggesting the possibility of light snow by Friday night. Over the course of the summer, we have taken several steps to insure the safety of Snow Summit and Bear Mountain. These steps include clearing trees from all facilities and lifts and positioning an intricate sprinkler system around the ridgelines of both resorts should fire approach. As you know, the resorts have two of the largest snowmaking systems in the world that are capable of bringing vast quantities of water to all areas of the resort should fire actually reach them (which is unlikely at this point). Please keep updated with the latest info on your local news stations. We will be onsite at the Fresh Tracks show in Long Beach this weekend. Please stop by to say Hi, and check out all the latest goods from Big Bear Mountain Resorts. We absolutely plan to open as usual sometime in mid to late November and look forward to a great 03-04 season. * * * * * * * * * * i'm so there!! who's with me??

try this... click me!! you're all fabulous!! *mwah*

LAKERS RELOADED oh man, my boys were on FIRE tonight! this season is gonna be kick ass!!! yeeeaahhhhhhh babbbbbyyyyy!! malone & payton were kickin ass...and of course my all time favorite.....FISHY!!!! we will get it back!!!! ahhhhhhhh yeeaahhhhhhhhh!!!! *mwah*

Have You Ever? [Chorus] Have you ever loved somebody so much It makes you cry Have you ever needed something so bad You can't sleep at night Have you ever tried to find the words But they don't come out right Have you ever, have you ever Have you ever been in love Been in love so bad You'd do anything to make them understand Have you ever had someone steal your heart away You'd give anything to make them feel the same Have you ever searched for the words to get you in their heart But you don't know what to say And you don't know where to start [Chorus] Have you ever found the one You've dreamed of all of your life You'd do anything to look into their eyes Have you finally found the one you've given your heart to Only to find that one won't give their heart to you Have you ever closed your eyes and Dreamed that they were there And all you can do is wait for the day when they will care [Chorus] What do I gotta do to get you in my arms baby What do I gotta say to get to your heart To make you understand how I need you next to me Gotta get you in my world 'Cuz baby I can't sleep [Chorus] * * * * * * * * * * this is stuck in my head at the moment...

after today... i will BE out of debt. =D *MWAH*

radio... i highly recommend this movie. it touched me so much that i cried (and i NEVER cry), but i wasn't the only one...everyone in my row was (even the boys!). i was told that some parts were overdone, but i don't think so...it was just right (if that is possible). cuba was excellent...he'll probably be nominated for an oscar for this one! =) i even bought the soundtrack. =) it was amazing. just go see it, yes...it WAS that good. =) oh and afterwords even the lady sitting next to me started talking to me about it, and the people next to them were so touched that they were touched...i even got a wave good-bye. =) "it's never a mistake to care for someone, that's always a good thing." *mwah*

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home sweet home... had a great time on my 3 day weekend (yup, i took friday off!!) surrounded by family and friends...ahhh good times. of course my bro & howard worked on my car practically all day friday, so she's raised a bit...runs really good. thanks again guys! and i hooked up with people i haven't seen in a long time, drinks, food...good times were had by all!! =), alcohol is good...let me tell you! or actually, let me show you! first...they worked on my car... then... drinking is what we did... here's more!! thanks so much guys! *mwah*

food for thought Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away. -George Carlin *mwah*

Ribbon In The Sky Oh so long for this night I prayed That a star would guide you my way To share with me this special day Where a ribbon's in the sky for our love If allowed may I touch your hand And if pleased may I once again So that you too will understand There's a ribbon in the sky for our love Do...Do... Do Do Do Do Do... HMM HMM... This is not a coincidence And far more than a lucky chance But what is that was always meant Is our ribbon in the sky for our love, love We can't lose with God on our side We'll find strength in each tear we cry From now on it will be you and I And our ribbon in the sky Ribbon in the sky A ribbon in the sky for our love Do...Do... Do Do Do Do Do... HMM HMM... [Musical Break] There's a ribbon in the sky for our love * * * * * * * * * * this is stuck in my head...probably cause i was listening to it in my car. i'm just really happy...and i'm going home today! whooo hoooo! have a great weekend everyone! *mwah*

it's madness i tell you!! i tell you, our part of the state is going crraazzzyyyyyyyy!!! first our major grocery store employees are on strike...so instead of crossing the picketing lines i choose to cook what i have in the fridge/freezer. then mta goes on strike this morning...so it's hellish out there on the mean streets of la! i heard that even the kids will have to get rides to get home after school. traffic will be hell for the next couple of days or more...and who knows how long the grocery employees will be on strike. it's madness!!!! argghhhhhhh!!!!

lead the way Who would've believed That you and me would fall And land together And who could've foreseen In you I'd find the place I've belonged forever And, if I move closer Then love will take over And lead the way. I'd given up hope Losing the faith that love Could be mine to treasure And, now Nothing's the same I found myself reborn On the day I met you And, if we move closer Then love will take over And lead the way. Suddenly, you are lying here with me And the truths I used to hold have changed And, if I move closer And let it take over Then love will lead the way. If we move closer And let it take over Then love will lead the way. * * * * * * * * * * i heard this on a re-run of ally mcbeal...anyone have it? i really like it. =)

picture pages these are some pictures from last weekend up in san jose, yeah from the funeral. BUT! if you wanna see some more shots of this little hottie...click here!
here's some random shots of me and my family taken over the last year =) here's more!
enjoy! *mwah*

babygirl got new shoes... actually, i like to call them boots (since i absolutely love boots ;) !!). so she's been getting new boots every year...well lately anyway. so i'll most likley be going back home on thursday so uncle noel can raise her back up...might have to put a camber kit on her...but we'll see. hopefully after we put the original springs back on she'll be okay, i really don't wanna put the kit on ...then i'll have to drop 3 bills...grrrr. so yeah...ya'll have a beautiful weekend. *mwah*

stuck in my head...at the moment I'm telling the world Here and now That I'm gonna love you and love you I take this vow You captured my heart So long ago Still there are some critical things That you should know Yeeaah yeaah yeah Do I give all I am To be now and forever you man Do I take you to be Without question the woman for me Do I promise you I Do Do I promise you I do, I do This love has been worth waiting for This love doesn't matter to me If it's not yours As we become one Through and through I dedicate all my life To loving you Yeah yeaah yeah Do I give all I am To be now and forever you man Do I take you to be Without question the woman for me Do I promise you I Do Do I promise you I do, I do To have and to hold While passions unfold I promise a life you won't regret For better or worse Noo one can reverse the way that I felt And you ain't seen nothin yet (Girl) Do I give all I am To be now and forever you man Do I take you to be Without question the woman for me Do I swear on my life we'll be happy as husband and wife? Do I promise you Do I promise you Do I promise you I do Do I promise you I do * * * * * * * * * * this was the song in my head that i woke up to. no, it wasn't playing on the radio, it was just playing...in my head. anyway...it's friday!! so ya'll have a happy friday!!! and the bestest weekend!! *mwah*

hmmmm.... i can't stop smiling. =) the only problem i have at the moment is this song going through my head...it's been stuck there since monday. does anyone know the lyrics to "can i call you my girl" by pc quest? it suddenly popped in there monday night...and it refuses to go away. help me...

judgment day ahhahahahahhhaha schwarzenegger won! whoooo hooooo we got the terminator as governor!!! YEAHHHHHH! i heard that some people would be moving back out of state if this were to happen. interesting. hahahhahahha SUCKA'S!!!! yay, prop 54 was dissed and dismissed! see voting works, it's our civic duty. hey, ya'll can complain all you want...unless someone changes the system it ain't gonna change. DEAL WITH IT!! ahhhhh, gotta love it! *MWAH*

Capricorn It may seem like everyone around you is happy and getting what they want, while you are still stuck in the trenches, dear Capricorn. Don't compare yourself to other people and make judgments based on their outside appearances. The truth of the matter is that most likely they are only looking at the immediate future and only experiencing short-term pleasures. You, however, have your eyes set on the long haul, and will probably be much better off overall. * * * * * * * * * * i like my horoscope for today. =) have a beautiful day everyone...and don't forget to vote (well, all of you out here on the west side *throws up the 'dub*). *mwah*

recall election... GO OUT THERE AND VOTE CALIFORNIANS!!! i did it via absentee, so go out there and let your voice be heard!! every vote counts!! especially in this election...it's history in the making. yay california!! whoooo hoooooo!! go to it!! *MWAH*

something to keep in mind i told this to a friend of mine today, "you can't always play it safe. . . sometimes it's good to take a chance." you gotta at least try right?

happy yom kippur =)

something nice to share Maybe God wanted us to meet the wrong people before meeting the right one so that when we finally meet the right person, we will know how to be grateful for that gift. Maybe when the door of happiness closes, another opens, but often times we look so long at the closed door that we don't see the one which has been opened for us. Maybe the best kind of friend is the kind you can sit on a porch and swing with, never say a word, and then walk away feeling like it was the best conversation you've ever had. Maybe it is true that we don't know what we've got until we lose it, but it is also true that we don't know what we've been missing until it arrives. Don't go for looks; they can deceive. Don't go for wealth; even that fades away. Go for someone who makes you smile because it takes only a smile to make a dark day seem bright. Find the one that makes your heart smile. There are moments in life when you miss someone so much that you just want to pick them from your dreams and hug them for real. Dream what you want to dream; go where you want to go; be what you want to be, because you have only one life and one chance to do all the things you want to do. May you have enough happiness to make you sweet, enough trials to make you strong, enough sorrow to keep you human, enough hope to make you happy. The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best of everything; they just make the most of everything that comes along their way. Love begins with a smile, grows with a kiss and ends with a tear. The brightest future will always be based on a forgotten past, you can't go on well in life until you let go of your past failures and heartaches. When you were born, you were crying and everyone around you was smiling. Live your life so that when you die, you are the one smiling and everyone around you is crying. * * * * * * * * * * thanks kevin! =)

random thought... Let your heart guide you. It whispers, so listen carefully. -Land Before Time * * * * * * * * * * i stole this from bumblebootie. it was just speaking to me this morning (and apparently. . . i was listening). thanks girlie. . . *mwah*

All my life I will never find another lover sweeter than you, sweeter than you I will never find another lover more precious than you, more precious than you Girl You are Close to me you're like my mother, Close to me you're like my father, Close to me you're like my sister, Close to me you're like my brother You are the only one my everything and for you this song I sing All my life I pray for someone like you I thank God that I, that I finally found you All my life I pray for someone like you I hope that you feel the same way too Yes, I pray that you do, love me too Said I promised to never fall in love with a stranger, You're all I'm thinking of I praise the Lord above, For sending me your love, I cherish every hug, I REALLY LOVE YOU!!! All my life, I pray for someone like you, I thank God that I, that I finally found you All my life I pray for someone like you I hope that you feel the same way too Yes, I pray that you do, love me You're all that I've ever known, your smile on your face, all I see is a glow, You turned my life around, You picked me up when I was down, You're all that I've ever known, when you smile your face glows, You picked me up when I was down You're all that I've ever known, when you smile your face glows, You picked me up when I was down & I hope that you feel the same way too, Yes I pray that you do love me too All my life, I pray for someone like you, I thank God that I, that I finally found you All my life I pray for someone like you I hope that you feel the same way too Yes, I pray that you do, love me too All my life I pray for someone like you * * * * * * * * * * * i like this one too...they just don't make 'em like this anymore...

Come And Talk To Me (Intro) I've been watching you, baby For a long time You look so good Got my eyes on you (Verse 1) I've been watching you For so every long Trying to get my nerve built up To be so strong I really want to meet you But I'm kinda of scared 'Cause you're the kind of lady With so much class I get my thoughts together For the every next day But when I see you lady I forget what to say Your eyes demand Such a beautiful tone The way you dress and walk It really turns me on, yeah... Ooh, yeah, you really turn me on Come on, come on, come on... (Chorus) Come and talk to me I really want to meet you Can I talk to you I really want to know you Come and talk to me I really want to meet you Can I talk to you I really want to know you Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh... (Verse 2) There you are again With the same smile on each day I wanna know what it is That makes me feel this way I wish I could grab you Tell you what it means to me To see you walking my way It really makes my day Before I go to sleep And dream about you I'm a single man I hope that you are single, too Why do I seek Something to set my mind free 'Cause curiosity is bugging The hell out of me, baby... Talk to me, talk to me Talk to me, baby (Chorus) You want to tell me your name Let me play your game You want to tell me your name Let me play your game (Vamp Out) * * * * * * * * * * * this song just popped into my head... been reminiscing. i really want a slow jam cd. dammit. i'll be your best friend. ;) oh and these new colors remind me of vanilla ice cream with strawberry topping... i always want to lick my screen whenever i see it. heh.

please keep the intia family in mind... i just found out from my cousin-n-law that they will have to take my uncle-n-law off of life support, and a memorial will be held on saturday. please keep nice thoughts, and your prayers for my uncle and the family. this has been a long ongoing battle. thank you.

. . . . you had me at hello. you complete me. i am the king of the kingdom... the lord of the living. i want to be inspired. other guys have the calm, i have the qwam. why should i let this one go, when everything in my body says.. he is the one. you bet on me...like i bet on you.

Circle of life From the day we arrive on the planet And blinking, step into the sun There's more to be seen than can ever be seen More to do than can ever be done Some say eat or be eaten Some say live and let live But all are agreed as they join the stampede You should never take more than you give (Chorus) In the Circle of Life It's the wheel of fortune It's the leap of faith It's the band of hope Till we find our place On the path unwinding In the Circle, the Circle of Life Some of us fall by the wayside And some of us soar to the stars And some of us sail through our troubles And some have to live with the scars There's far too much to take in here More to find than can ever be found But the sun rolling high Through the sapphire sky Keeps the great and small on the endless round (Chorus repeats) On the path unwinding In the Circle, the Circle of Life. * * * * * * * * * * i like this song...kinda fits. i pre-ordered my dvd...did you?

bring it on!! i'm ready. *grabs oar*

happy rosh hashanah!! have a beautiful new year! =)

you know what i miss? getting tapes from guys, making tapes for a guy, agonizing over what songs to put, the length of the song or even the tape, getting pages of 177012171176 or 6000 17173 or 143, 823 - 247 or 1 177155 400, letters they give to you on your way to your next class, or the way they look at you when they don't think you're looking, getting rides from them in their parents car (HA!), or their new integra or honda civic (whoo hooo), phone calls (and constantly being interrupted by your mom), getting goofy with the girls every time you talk about them, first dates...first anything for that matter, holding hands during breaks...or at the mall, staying up late talking...hoping your parents don't wake up and catch you. i also miss... staying up late in front of a computer trying to read a scroll... that's going too daymn fast! going on IRC trips (ROAD TRIP anyone?? anyone??), getting snail mail of pictures (before everyone started scanning everything, and being all high tech), bonfires, housewarmings, albertos, parties, random emails just saying hi and what up! visits from complete strangers....that i talk to online. singing on voice mails, or having someone else on my message, cutting class to go to the computer lab, eating dinner in front of the computer while tYpIng LiKe ThIs (we were so strange), and getting all happy whenever someone would yell out LEEN! (or insert name here). now we have... text messaging on our cellys, gadgets galore (BEST BUY RULES!!), aim, yahoo, msn, icq, and back by popular demand....mIRC! some of us have those same civics, cd players in our cars instead of tape decks, friendster (HA!), blogs or lj's, flying instead of driving (i even go alone!). there's probably more to add to my lists...ahhh those were the days. why did we have to grow up? i would so kill for a mix cd/tape, a 177012171176 text or even a 6000 17173. now no one has time...it's all hi and good bye...but in the immortal words of blackstreet...don't say good bye...say good night. adieu.

remember this? ...I don't see it being a problem If I just get one little bitty kiss baby... I just can't let you get away, oh yeah... Lord, have mercy... I don't want lose your sweet love So don't say good-bye, say good-night. * * * * * * * * * * now who wants to make me a slow jam cd/tape? hahahhaha those were the days!

have a little faith... i got my sign today. =)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JENN-LAN!! you're my age now! =) go out there and get you sum...and kick the fucker out!!! =) whoooo hoooooo drink up you alcoholic!!! hehe i'll take you out next time i'm home. happy birthday girl =) *mwah*

i wanna see this... who wants to come with? the previews alone moved me, actually...this looks like i'll probably cry. =) haven't seen a movie that has made me cry in a long time. they don't make 'em that way anymore huh?

quotable quotes the hardest part about moving forward... is not looking back. got that from bumblebootie. thanks girlie! that's so true!!! *mwah*

whispers... i still know html. *mwah*

random lines "i've been thinking a lot lately about you and me, and i've came to a conclusion that i didn't want to deal with. but now that we talked i can't hide it anymore. i think we'd get a long much better, if we didn't spend so much time together anymore. why? because i'm driving you crazy, and you're driving me crazy, and i'd rather not see you, and have you think good things about me, then have you see me and hate me. cause i can't afford to have you hate me keith, the only things i care about in this god daymn life are me and my drums and you. adios." "...i went along with it cause i, i rather be next to somebody for the wrong reasons, then alone for the right ones. i'd rather be right. i couldn't stand being alone. nobody can stand being alone. the minute you stop thinking there's someone out there for you it's over, isn't it?...isn't it? i don't know." "...remember how i said i'd rather be with someone for the wrong reasons, then alone for the right ones? i'd rather be right. it's gonna feel good to stand on my own." "i'm sorry, i didn't know. yeah, well you're stupid. i always knew you were stupid. why didn't you tell me? you never asked. ...i wanted these, i really wanted them. they're yours. you knew you were going to get them. no i didn't, i hoped no i didn't know you knew. i had a feeling, well how do they look? you look good...wearing my future."

revisiting the past "...and these children that you spit on as they try to change their worlds are immune to your consultations. they're quite aware of what they're going through..." -david bowie as you walk on by...will you call my name?

voices of reason you see, i have these two voices of reason. . . and they usually say the same thing at about the same time. i've been really antsy lately. . . but i think i'll be okay now. they're basically just pointing out the obvious, and i really don't like listening (but i can't stop thinking about what they said). i can give them advice up the yin yang, but when it comes to me. . . it just takes a lil while to sink in. so i just wanted to thank gen and lissa. thanks guys, i love you both! *mwah*

so i've come to this conclusion friendster is evil! people that i've been not really hiding from, but not really associating with (for good reason) are finding me. i left them when i left the bay. . . they weren't supposed to be able to find me. not that i'm really hiding, but shit, no more drama! don't get me wrong, sometimes it's not evil. . . i like what some people write about me, or the fact that i can contact people that i haven't talked to or seen in years. why do the people that i don't want any contact with have to find me? why can't they just let the past be the past? maybe they feel that it's time to move on? that's all well and good. . . thing is. . . i still remember. some shit you just can't forget, no matter how hard you try, or how much time passes.

i need this!! now who's gonna get it for me?

memory lane A little house with three bedrooms and one car on the street, A mower that you had to push to make the grass look neat. In the kitchen on the wall we only had one phone, And no need for recording things, someone was always home. We only had a living room where we would congregate, Unless it was at meal time in the kitchen where we ate. We had no need for family rooms or extra rooms to dine, When meeting as a family those two rooms would work out fine. We only had one TV set and channels maybe two, But always there was one of them with something worth the view. For snacks we had potato chips that tasted like a chip, And if you wanted flavor there was Lawson's � onion dip. Store bought snacks were rare because my mother liked to cook, And nothing can compare to snacks in Betty Crocker's � book. The snacks were even healthy with the best ingredients, There wa s no label with a hundred things that made no sense. Weekends were for family trips or staying home to play, We all did things together even go to church to pray. When we did our weekend trips depending on the weather, No one stayed at home because we liked to be together. Sometimes we would separate to do things on our own, But we knew where the others were without our own cell phone. Then there was the movies with your favorite movie star, And nothing can compare to watching movies in your car. Then there were the picnics at the peak of summer season, Pack a lunch and find some trees and never need a reason. Get a baseball game together with the friends you know, Have real action playing ball and no game video. Remember when the doctor used to be the family friend, And didn't need insurance or a lawyer to defend, The way that he took care of you or what he had to do, Because he took an oath and stri ved to do the best for you. Remember when the country was united under God, And prayer in schools and public places was not deemed as odd. Remember when the church was used for worshipping The Lord, And not used for commercial use or for some business board. Remember going to the store and shopping casually, And when you went to pay for it you used your own money. Nothing that you had to swipe or punch in some amount, Remember when the cashier person had to really count? Remember when we breathed the air it smelled so fresh and clean, And chemicals were not used on the grass to keep it green. The milkman and the bread man used to go from door to door, And it was just a few cents more than going to the store. There was a time when mailed letters came right to your door, Without a lot of junk mail ads sent out by every store. The mailman knew each house by name and knew where it was sent, There was not lo ads of mail addressed to present occupant. Remember when the words "I do" meant that you really did, And not just temporally till someone blows their lid. There was no such thing as no one's fault; we just made a mistake, There was a time when married life was built on give and take. There was a time when just one glance was all that it would take, And you would know the kind of car, the model and the make. They didn't look like turtles trying to squeeze every mile, They were streamlined, white walls and fins and really had some style. One time the music that you played whenever you would jive, Was from a vinyl, big holed record called a forty-five. The record player had a post to keep them all in line, And then the records would drop down and play one at a time. Oh sure we had our problems then just like we do today, And always we were striving, trying for a better way. And every year that passed us by bro ught new and greater things, We now can even program phones with music or with rings. Oh the simple life we lived still seems like so much fun, How can you explain a game, just kick the can and run. And why would boys put baseball cards between bicycle spokes, And for a nickel red machines had little bottled cokes. That life seemed so much easier and slower in some ways, I love the new technology but I sure miss those days. So time moves on and so do we and nothing stays the same But I sure love to reminisce and walk down memory lane. * * * * * * * * * * ahhh, the good 'ol days. i miss them so. *mwah*

i want it to be perfectly clear. . . like glass. thanks lan! *mwah* i promise not to do it again, and if i do. . . someone needs to be on the phone with me!! hehehehe i was careful, i promise!!! i was!! =)

governors race? as i sit here reading my "california statewide special election official voter information guide" i get distracted by the fox news. you see, they have candidates go on the show for a few minutes (they've been doing this since this whole debacle started), and i was just appalled by the candidate tonight. she knew NOTHING about politics, and dogged every question that had anything to do with politics. you don't need to know about politics to run for governor? bull fucking shit. bitch runs a bar for god's sake. she's a "entrepreneur" this is her 3rd bar she's owned, and some other bullshit that she's been running. granted she wants to take the tax off of cigarettes (didn't even have a good enough reason for that), although that would be cool. . . still she didn't have another way to raise the money besides taking the tax off of cigs or alcohol. now tell me this. how is that going to make her the best candidate for governor? she says she dosen't need to know politics, how the fuck can she go on tv and say that? she clowned on davis, but i have a few more words for her. she couldn't answer a daymn question, she left looking like a friken fool. granted, i can't remember her name, but it wasn't in my 'offical voter information guide.' swear, everyone and their momma is running for governor. i still have no idea of who i'm voting for, but at least i decided that i'm going to do it via absentee. i have a month to decide. man. . . 134 candidates, and we only have to pick one. guess i better start up on my reading, i don't wanna pick one randomly. . . they say our vote counts right? so hopefully mine will count. *mwah*

my new friend so floudner is adjusting to his new home quite nicely. he's so soft and cuddly, you can't help but hug him (sales lady told us that i have to do that--cause he's a special plush). =) so here he is in his new home. . .
hehehe he sleeps with me in my bed. ;) *mwah*

happy birthday to my blog so all of you have seen one year of my random thoughts, vents, obsessions, happiness & sadness. you've seen my template changes, and updates (i still know html!!) & my random pictures. thank you all for reading, thanks for the input or for the random comments (i love comments). i'm glad i could entertain you in the only way i know how. you have been there through all my trips, seen me through my sadness. . . and lots of happy times. you have seen my writing style change (kinda), you have given me input on my questions, or you listened to me vent about anything and everything. thanks for going along with me on the ride, it was like yesterday i was asking mike. . . what is blogger? how do you do that comments thing? what do you write about? this was supposed to be an outlet for writing, and for the most part it's been just that. i still don't have a song to sing, but that's my bad. so yay, happy birthday to my blog, happy birthday to my blog, happy birthday little bloooooggggg, happy birthday to you. love you! *MWAH* thanks for introducing me to the world of blog mike!

2 year anniversary

i remember turning on the tv. . . and i thought it was a clip from a movie. called my carpool buddy and made her turn on the tv, she started flipping out. as soon as we got to work we got sent back home. as soon as i got home i was trying to get a hold of michele (she was in jersey for business), couldn't get a hold of her. turns out she was supposed to be on the plane from jersey to sf. . . the one that crashed near the pentagon. i was freaking out, calling her cell like every hour on the hour. . . she ended up emailing me at work (so i didn't find out she was okay till the next day). it's just amazing to me, everyone seems to know someone who was affected by 9/11. . . i thought we were next. . .

random lyrics playing in my head I'm Standing on a bridge I'm waitin in the dark I thought that you'd be here by now Theres nothing but the rain No footsteps on the ground I'm listening but theres no sound Isn't anyone tryin to find me? Won't somebody come take me home It's a damn cold night Trying to figure out this life Wont you take me by the hand take me somewhere new I dont know who you are but I... I'm with you . . . It's a damn cold night Trying to figure out this life Wont you take me by the hand take me somewhere new I dont know who you are but I... I'm with you Take me by the hand take me somewhere new I dont know who you are but I... I'm with you I'm with you * * * * * * * * * lyrics always get stuck in there for some reason. i can't explain it. so i got excused from jury duty today. plaintiff's attorney probably didn't like any of my answers. oh well, too bad for him! that's what they get from interrupting me from my reading! i almost finished fellowship today. grrrrrrr. i think i'm content. *mwah*

picture pages, picture pages so i finally was able to download everything (and i mean everything). so herrrrrreeeeeee you go. . . pick a day, any day. . . day 1, day 2, day 3, day 4. sorry if some of them are blurry or what not, i'm not that great at takin pics (but i try). hope you enjoy the show! i want copies from everyone else. . . so hurry up and put them on ofoto, or what not. =) *mwah*

jersey - day 4 so it was my last day on the east coast. . . and we headed over to best buy! phil let me drive, so i can say i drove on the east coast. we picked up tim. . . then went to my most favorite store EVER! it's set up the same way as it is over in cali! i was like, oh wow. phil said i could dance in circles (on that big yellow dot) but i decided that i should contain myself. everything basically looks the same (i didn't think it would be any different--maybe the set up). so we headed over to barnes. i'm so sorry phil. . . i didn't mean to grind your lil girls gears. . . or forget how to take out the key. i'm really really sorry. yeah, i refused to drive after that. so yeah, i can now say i drove on the east coast (will i drive in the city? that's a whole other story). so after that we headed over and chilled at starbucks for a quick minute. . . took my last pictures of jersey (heh at starbucks). =) i love starbucks. . . coffee is ALWAYS good. phil basically told me it was up to me to decide what do to for the next 4 or so hours. of course i couldn't figure out what to do. . . then i was like. . . umm shotglass? so we headed to china town for one last time. =) i don't think anyone understood me when i said shot glass. . . the first lady just showed me where the sunglasses were. . . then we were just perusing different shops to see what they had. finally, i found one to add to my collection. . . a nice double shot with a black design. of course all the sanrio stores didn't have my pekkle. swear, i still don't know why they discontinued him. . . he's the cutest character ever! so after all that, we headed back to phil's to get my stuff. . . so the boys could drop me off at the airport. that was my last trip through the holland tunnel and pulaski skyway (for a lil while anyway). good thing we got there when we did. i was in a long ass line. . . then when i finally got through i had to rush to the gate. i had a lil bit of time to chill (and take out the contacts), so i was good. the plane ride was much better going back. no screaming children, nothing like that. buttttt the lady that sat next to me was friken irritating me! every time i laughed at the movie she would look at me with these big eyes, like. . . how dare you! sorry you didn't have a head set to listen with. . . it's not the same without the volume huh. even when i asked for orange juice she would stare at me. and she was moving around in her seat cause i think she got mad that i was using all my space up. i don't care if you can move in your seat beyatch, i'm not going to give you space. . . sorry you can't curl up in fetal position like me. jealous much? so in a nutshell. . . that was my trip to the east coast. i had soooo much fun out there. . . i wasn't bored, just tired. if you were on the plane i was on (hello--chain reaction of screaming babies interrupted the sleeping plan). . . you would understand. so i would like to thank phil for being a really great tour guide (swear, you had to put up with me for 4 days and cram in all the sites?). . . and absolutely wonderful company. almost exactly what i had in mind. =) don't worry, i'll be back. . . even with "formal karaoke" or whatever you pull out of your hat. thanks for letting me use your room. . . i really like your monitor. *HUG* i'm glad i was able to meet the "east coast irc'ers". . . always wanted to swing this way. . . and now i have. now i can put faces to the "nicks" (well besides pictures--so not the same). so yeah i'm back doing the daily once again. . . didn't have jury duty today, and i'm HELLA tired, yo. i think i've said enough about my trip. i can't wait to go back again. =) *MWAH*

jersey - day 3 we actually slept in today. . . hehe i made phil watch lotr - two towers (well this mornin') and umm like usual. . . i fell asleep towards the middle. oooppppsss, sowee phil. so we didn't really sleep till like after 7ish. sorry about that. . . i know i kinda just got up and went to bed. . . sorry. so when we did get up we went to jersey gardens. . . i found a few stuff at h&m. phil was trying to tell me that over here, karaoke is "formal". he even got jayce to tell me that it was formal attire. phil was like. . . this is new york. wow cali has "casual karaoke"? and of course, like a dumb ass i sorta believe him. i'm not sure about this guy. . . swear. . . i can't tell when he's joking or when he's serious. grrrrrrrr. then when i was on the phone jayce was like, "do you guys have casual weddings?" i was just explaining afternoon type weddings as compared to evenings weddings (which i'm sure is the same out here). he was like, just go to h&m you can get a dress from them. then phil decides to tell me that for weddings it's mandatory that the dj play "new york new york" and on the groomsmen bottom left sleeve they have two bands. . . symbolizing the man and the woman. swear. . . he had me believing the "formal karaoke" till we were about to leave to go pick tim up. i was like. . . aren't you going to change? so we get to 2nd & 2nd. i've never been to the karaoke places with the rooms before. it was kinda cool actually, and yes. . . they made me sing. it wasn't so bad. . . i finally sang that christina aguilera song i've been meaning to sing at jac. figured i practiced it, and the words were like right there. . . so why not? i was living the dream, as tim put it. HA! but after a few glasses of red wine, i was singing with roz, or whatever was playing. it was really fun. didn't think karaoke could be that fun. i guess that's why phil likes it so much. i think it's his favorite thing to do. he was all excited about it. daymn you formal karaoke! i'll get you back. . . you watch. . . i will. that was a really cool way to end my actual last day/night over here. next time i come out we're gonna hit up a lot of other places. heh. atlantic city. . . here we come! so yeah, today we're gonna go to BEST BUY!!! i LOVE that store. i'm gonna make phil dance in circles! hahahha so you guys have a great day. . . i'll be back on a plane tonight. ahhh vacation was way to short. . . but i had the best time ever. so not bored. so glad i came. =) with all that. . . i shall bid ya'll adieu. *mwa*

jersey - day 2 actually we hit up ny via the "path". we walked all over the city (haven't done that much walking. . . ever). we went through times square, 5th ave, passed by radio city music hall, stopped in at st. patricks cathedral, went to the nba store, & disney store. . . . and through central park. ^_^ while we were at the disney store. . . I FOUND FLOUNDER!!!! he was the very last one & he's a special plush. . . he's so cuddly. i love him. i've been looking all over for the little guy. . . and i find him in the disney store in nyc. hmmmmmmmm. interesting, yes? so anyway, we were trying to get a cab. . . we walked along central park & some side streets. . . phil kept trying but no one wanted to stop so he let me do it. heh. 2 minutes later we're getting into a cab. heheh *snap* i think i can make it out here. heheheh so yay, my first cab ride in nyc! he was kinda scary. . . i kept looking at how close he would get to the other cars. so we hooked up with jayce and had lunch/dinner at bbq's. food was good, but their rasberry ice tea sucks. . . it was like colored water. maybe i should start drinking soda again (at least when i come out here). we walked down canal street and phil was forcing me to go into stores and trying to get me to buy things. . . since he didn't want me to make them all walk down without buying anything. . . i personally didn't think it was a waste of time or anything since i'm just taking everything in (it's a friken big ass city!!! - and i'm only one small person. . . kinda overwhelming). but at least they said i don't walk slow--heh i was actually keeping up with them. they said by the end of the day i'd have calves of steal. . . i already have calves of steal! *flex* this was like step class, or not even. . . i wasn't even tired. *pats back* *flings hair* then we went on my very first subway!!! it was actually kinda of nice. i kept looking at everyone (i love people watching). it's kinda like the bart, but considering that i only went on the bart once i can't really compare (or is the path like bart? i don't remember). jayce hopped on another subway ('cause he didn't wanna go up steps with us--or something) . . and we went up the empire state building. it's hella tall man! but i love lights, it's sooooo much better than twin peaks. you get an all around view of the city--which was very cool. these lights were way better than s.f. lights. . . but we were also way higher up than if we were at twin peaks--so i think that counts for something. i kept thinking of sleepless in seattle when we were up there, i was like. . . it didn't look like this in the movie! it actually looked a lot smaller, but i guess if it wasn't packed with all those people then maybe it would have looked bigger. anyway. . . so we took the path back to jersey. went to take a few pics of the skyline (it was hella nice--well especially since it didn't rain today). then phil showed me the giants stadium and something else (can't remember--sowee). . . and my tour of jersey and nyc was officially over. i still can't remember the name of that bridge we keep going on. . . starts with a p? since the tour was over. . . we "attempted" to play harry potter sorcerer's stone over at tim's pad. so yeah, basically i'm stuck--i think i'm just going to give up. we played some other game. . . something to do with disney characters. . . then halo. i had absolutely no idea what i was doing. . . i was just trying to kill phil while spinning around in circles (or i should say "destiny" was trying to kill "ver7igo" hehehhe). hehehe sorry for shooting you tim, i got confused. so we started playing the actual game. . .got a little tired of it. . . then i got a little dizzy. umm sorry guys. . . so didn't expect that to happen. i haven't done that in a while. . . maybe it was just time. . . you know time and place for everything (umm yeah okay). at least i didn't umm yeah all over your living room heheheh soweee. then we headed back to phil's and watched my man shoot some arrows. . . and gracefully get on his horse (i don't care if that's cg. . . he still looks hot doing it!!). *sigh* by the time we actually went to bed it was past 7ish in the morning. . . then i woke up to early. . . woke up phil. . . then went back to bed. . . then "attempted" to wake up phil after a few hours of quality time with the bed. now i'm up and ready to go. . . so with all this i shall bid you adieu. have a wonderful weekend. . . i know i am. =) *MWA*

jersey - day 1 so as soon as i get on the plane. . . screaming babies EVERYWHERE. it's like they were getting inside my head. . . i felt like my head was about to explode. i know for a fact that no one in my row was able to sleep. i was just listening to my cd's and trying to figure out what movie they were playing. i bet, even if i started reading lotr i wouldn't have fallen asleep. . . hell, i could have finished the book!! i could not wait to land--swear that made me never want to have children. . . EVER!!! so i land (nice airport btw). . .phil was on time--even though he joked that he might be late (or have jayce come get me). . . my luggage was like the last one they throw out (or whatever they do). hehe i thought it got lost, or it was left in la by then. then we go to breakfast--DUDE you can smoke inside the resturant!!!!! i was like. . . hell yeah! that's a first for me (come on now--you can only do that in vegas!!), considering you can't do that in cali (and i'm told also in ny). anyway, i got the driving tour of jersey and parts of ny on day 1. we went through hoboken (i like the buildings btw), and we went on a bunch of bridges (i don't remember the names. . . one of them starts with a p--i was supposed to have a test at the end of the day but i think we were too tired then). one of the first places we went to was mitsuwa. i think i've been to the one over in cali before with my family (i think)--dude. . . you can smoke in this one!! haha i think i just got excited to see that you can smoke in places where you can't over in cali. it was really really overcast (and off and on raining) so we couldn't see the skyline. . . so we headed over to see lady liberty. we rode a ferry!! i haven't done that in years (at least i think i did--can't remember exactly when i did). we went over to ellis island (we didn't get off) then off to the statue of liberty. she's friken huge! i was like whoa. i even bought my daddy a hat from the "outside gift shop". and i so appologize to phil. . . i was "hella" tired at that point ( & I WAS NOT BORED!!!!). i had a great time during the site seeing (you're a really great tour guide!!). ^_^ you're soooo the bomb! we went driving around after that--grabbed some coffee at starbucks (i love coffee!!) and we were on our way to the city. now before this, i actually wanted to drive up in the city. . . umm after like a second i changed my mind. dude, it's like we were in the pinas! people were just walking out in the street, and they not only cut you off, they don't signal, and everyone just goes. i was scared just sitting on the passenger side! i was totally freaked out. like yeah. heheeh then off to hop kee for dinner (we'll we got there "hella" early so we walked around china town). since i was "hella" tired i was sitting in the car as everyone was coming in. . . let's get this straight. i was TIRED, i do not have an attitude problem, and I WAS NOT BORED!!! you try not really sleeping the night before, getting on a plane with children screaming the entire 5 or so hours. . . i wanna see how hyper you are. i think i was hungry, cause after we ate (i really liked it btw) i was semi-fine again. hehe i got to meet the east coast irc'ers, let's see. . .gail, donna, anna, jayce, john, airs (i can't remember your wife or your girlfriends name?), ohhhh the baby (he's "hella" cute!), hubert, and roz (i probably missed someone--sorry). so don't worry guys i told them all ya'll said hi, and they said hi back. heheh as soon as we got to the table all the cameras were out and we started passing the baby around, and takin' pics at every stop (pics to come later). so yeah, then off to bubble tea (after we took the pic outside of hop kee [they tell me it's traditon]). . . it's not exactly like boba, or pearl tea. . . but it's good. at that point i was just gone. i needed to re-charge my batteries (it's not like i'm 23 again, pullin' the all nighters. . . or hittin up the clubs and going home at ungodly hours--i really hate getting old). so back to jersey we went. surprisingly it took me a lil bit to fall asleep. i mean it was only 9 something cali time and 12 something jersey time. . . i tried to entertain myself with the tv, then i logged on to see who was up. i went to go see if phil was still up--then i saw the lights off, so i went back upstairs. i know i fell asleep cause when i opened my eyes again it was friken bright as hell (well hell isn't bright--actually i don't know about that one). so i'm up now. 10:52 jersey. . . so it's like 7:52 back at home. i swear, i hate waking up early all the time. . . this is why i never sleep in!! even if i was tired cause of the day/night before!! arrgghhh!! i'm so having the bestest time ever. i hear the weather is really nice today. shorts it is! heheh okies, since i'm up. . . i'm gonna go wake up phil! have a great day everyone!!!!!! *MWA* all the way from joisy baby!!! =)

random lines. . . again (it never ends!!) you said it was bad timing and i figured if i asked again maybe you'd say yes and if not that time then maybe the next time till the next time became the right time ahhh, persistence you'd be suprised how far it can get you. jealosy is a sickness let it go and just walk away. i don't even know why i'm here. after all these years together you don't know why you're here? all we have marvin is all these years. . . and it's just not enough. . . anymore. you want some truism my friend? when that jones comes down, it's gonna be muthafucka. * * * * * * * * * * 2/34

manong merrick & jen's wedding so it took us 4 friken hours to get to daygo! so yes, we missed the ceremony all together. but it's okay, i was forgiven. haven't seen some of these people in years, so yes. . . a good time was had by all. shannon had the table rolling (she's the best date ever!!), of course the wine helped. we made some new friends who incidentally are from jersey. . . grace & erickson (grace still lives in jersey & erickson lives in daygo). i didn't really have a chance to talk to manong (of course), but i had a mini-chat with him during the money dance. i'm sooooo happy for him, i know he wanted this for a while. so on that note, here's the happy couple. . . want more? click here! 3/34

seven days. . .

the third installation so there you have it. . . my trilogy is complete. thank you steve from outer limits. . . you're soooooo the bomb. he even re-did the ox for me too (now it dosen't look all fucked up). thank you louie again and again (even if you confused me this mornin'--you're still the bomb man!!) ahhhhh, i'm happy now. *MWA* 11/34

saying good bye. . . so this weekend i put my one and only desktop computer in babygirl and we drove home. . . monitor and all. she went to her new mommy this morning. *sigh* she was the first computer that i bought, the first one i used to irc (in color & SOUNDS!!--that was a trip), created (for lack of a better word) my first web page, wrote papers on her, did research. . . basically she got me through college. she was the one i used when i first started this blog. . . she's old, but she's still good. so i pass her on to my girl Lani, the adoption was finally complete. she might not be able to use netscape (since she's so old, she can't open the fancy pages anymore) but explorer works just as good. she went through an upgrade from 95 - 98 then back to 95 (not one of my best ideas). i had to get one of my friends to re-format her (thanks pauly!!), she completely broke down. . . but she got better. . . only a week of separation then she was back in business. she was there for all the good times and the bad, but in the end she was working better than ever. only has 25% more free mem, but i'm sure once Lan takes off netscape she'll be good once again. *sigh* it's really hard to let your babies go, but i had too. . . she was just sitting in my hallway all boxed up, i was neglecting her but i just didn't know where i should of taken her. *sigh* i feel better now, Lani will take good care of her. . . and i can talk to Lan online now. daymn, i remember those days. . . staying up till 4 or so just talking to everyone on irc--from new york to the bay. we would eat our dinners in front of the computer. . . i would rush home from school (after all those daymn night school classes), say hi to the family, grab some din-din. . . and turn her on. or i would log on just to find Lani or my other friends and see if they wanted to go to starbucks. . . i could have just as easily picked up the phone--but what fun is that? 'cause unlike some other "internet chatters" we all actually knew each other, and hung out whenever possible--albeit tours of the bay, dinners, movies, clubbing, watching the guys play bond, or daygo bonfires!! road trip anyone?? ahhhh the memories. i miss those days. so i shall bid adieu to my babygirl desktop. *tear* i miss you already. *sigh* *MWA* 18/34

playing defense what's the one thing all great teams have in common? . . . defense. see unlike scoring defense never quits. but to play great defense you need one thing above all else. . . confidence. listen, if you learn nothing else while you're here you learn this. . . alright? this is not just about hockey. it's easy to be confident when you have control of the puck, it's very very difficult to keep that confidence when you gotta take whatever strange bounces life throws your way. . . don't be careless--but don't be too careful either!! you cannot be afraid to lose!! that's how you gain the confidence to ATTACK the game when the puck isin't yours. that's how you attack life. even when you think you don't have any control. . . and thats how you play real defense. 24/34

The Road to Enlightenment - The Teachings of Zen 1. Do not walk behind me, for I may not lead. Do not walk ahead of me, for I may not follow. Do not walk beside me for the path is narrow. In fact, just fuck off and leave me alone. 2. The journey of a thousand miles begins with a broken fan belt and a flat tire. 3. The darkest hour is just before dawn. So if you're going to steal your neighbor's milk, that's the time to do it. 4. Sex is like air. It's not important unless you aren't getting any. 5. Don't be irreplaceable. If you can't be replaced, you can't be promoted. 6. No one is listening until you fart. 7. Always remember you're unique. Just like everyone else. 8. Never test the depth of the water with both feet. 9. If you think nobody cares whether you're alive or dead, try missing a couple of mortgage payments. 10. Before you criticize someone, you should walk a mile in their shoes. That way, when you criticize them, you're a mile away and you have their shoes. 11. If at first you don't succeed, skydiving is not for you. 12. Give a man a fish and he will eat for a day. Teach him how to fish, and he will sit in a boat and drink beer all day. 13. If you lend someone $20 and never see that person again, it was probably worth it. 14. If you tell the truth, you don't have to remember anything. 15. Some days you are the bug; some days you are the windshield. 16. Don't worry; it only seems kinky the first time. 17. Good judgment comes from bad experience, and a lot of that comes from bad judgment. 18. The quickest way to double your money is to fold it in half and put it back in your pocket. 19. A closed mouth gathers no foot. 20. Duct tape is like the Force. It has a light side and a dark side, and it holds the universe together. 21. There are two theories to arguing with women. Neither one works. 22. Generally speaking, you aren't learning much when your lips are moving. 23. Experience is something you don't get until just after you need it. * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * got this email from my friend mike and i could not stop laughing after the first one, so i'm sharing this all with you. enjoy! *MWA* 28/34

seasons change you know sometimes (or so i'm told). . .you wake up. things that used to bother you, don't. or things that you thought mattered, well. . .don't. i take that back--of course they matter (it's just not so much). it's normal for things to change like the seasons (it's just sad when they do). but you welcome the change because new things seem to pop up from out of nowhere. i think. . .earlier this week i woke up. one of my friends told me i would and i didn't believe him (but i did). so now i'm welcoming new things, changes if you will. hell, i'll be in jersey in 33 days and counting. so yeah. i think i'm actually happy now. not content. . .actually happy. the seasons change, people change. . . as expose sang it best, "Seasons change, feelings change. It's been so long since I found you, yet it seems like yesterday. Seasons change, people change." ahh, the times they are a changing my friend. adieu. 33/34 p.s. thanks dean. . . for the lesson. i'll keep it in mind for next time!

IF I KNEW

IF I KNEW If I knew it would be the last time that I see you walk out the door, I would give you a hug and kiss and call you back for one more. If I knew it would be the last time, I could spare an extra minute to stop and say "I love you," instead of assuming you would KNOW I do. If I knew it would be the last time I would be there to share your day, well I'm sure you'll have so many more, so I can let just this one slip away. For surely there's always tomorrow to make up for an oversight, and we always get a second chance to make everything just right. There will always be another day to say "I love you," and certainly there's another chance to say our "Anything I can do?" But just in case I might be wrong, and today is all I get, I'd like to say how much I love you and I hope we never forget. Tomorrow is not promised to anyone, young or old alike, and today may be the last chance you get to hold your loved one tight. So if you're waiting for tomorrow, why not do it today? For if tomorrow never comes, you'll surely regret the day. That you didn't take that extra time for a smile, a hug, or a kiss and you were too busy to grant someone what turned out to be their one last wish. So hold your loved ones close today, and whisper in their ear, tell them how much you love them and that you'll always hold them dear. Take time to say "I'm sorry," "Please forgive me," "Thank you," or "It's okay." And if tomorrow never comes, you'll have no regrets about today. * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * got this from my girl Gen. thanks girlie!! something to keep in mind, indeed. 34/34

I GOT IT!!!! wheeee!!! i got it this morning!! wheee!! watch out now!!! jersey, here i come!!! you're about to be invaded by a lil hyper ass californian!!! wheeee!! i can't wait, gonna see and do so many things!! yay!! i've been wanting to go for YEARS!! finally i can go!! yipeeee!! i'm so excited, and i just can't hide it! yay! okay a month and few days to go, but hey, i'm going to jersey/ny!!!! wheeeeeee!!!! *MWA* 34/34

The special people in my life People come into your life for a reason, a season, or a lifetime. When you figure out which it is, you know exactly what to do. When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed outwardly or inwardly. They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually. They may seem like a godsend, and they are. They are there for the reason you need them to be. Then, without any wrong doing on your part or an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end. Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away. Sometimes they act up or out and force you to take a stand. What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled; their work is done. The prayer you sent up has been answered and it is now time to move on. When people come into your life for a SEASON, it is because your turn has come to share, grow, or learn. They may bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh. They may teach you something you have never done. They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy. Believe it! It is real! But...only for a season. LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons; those things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation. Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person/people (anyway); and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life. It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant. * * * * * * * * * * * * got this forward, so i'm forwarding this to all of you. ain't the internet grand? *mwa*

Steps to Happiness Everybody knows: You can't be all things to everybody. You can't do all things at once. You can't do all things equally well. You can't do all things better than everyone else. Your humanity is showing just like everybody else. So: You have to find out who you are and be that. You have to decided what comes first and do that. You have to discover your strengths and use them. You have to learn not to compete with others because no one else is in the contest of being you. Then: You will have learned to set priorities and make decisions. You will have learned to live with your limitations. You will have learned to give yourself the respect that is due. And you will be a most vital mortal. Dare to believe: That you are a wonderful, unique person. That you are a once-in-all-history event. That it's more than a right... It's your duty to be who you are. That life is not a problem to solve, but a gift to cherish. And you'll be able to stay one up on what used to get you down. * * * * * * * * * * * * * * got this off of bumblebootie's blog. ahhhhh, it just speaks. thanks mel! *mwa*

something to ponder "I wanted a perfect ending. Now I've learned, the hard way, that some poems don't rhyme, and some stories don't have a clear beginning, middle, and end. Life is about not knowing, having to change, taking the moment and making the best of it, without knowing what's going to happen next. Delicious ambiguity." - Gilda Radner * * * * * * * * * * * i got this from my friend Jharv's blog. hits ya in the right spot. *fist in air*

Truism... As I've Matured... I've learned that you cannot make someone love you. All you can do is stalk them and hope they panic and give in. I've learned that one good turn gets most of the blankets. I've learned that no matter how much I care, some people are just assholes . I've learned that it takes years to build up trust, and it only takes suspicion, not proof, to destroy it. I've learned that whatever hits the fan will not be evenly distributed. I've learned that you shouldn't compare yourself to others - they are more screwed up than you think. I've learned that depression is merely anger without enthusiasm. I've learned that it is not what you wear; it is how you take it off. I've learned that you can keep vomiting long after you think you're finished. I've learned to not sweat the petty things, and not pet the sweaty things. I've learned that ex's are like fungus, and keep coming back. I've learned age is a very high price to pay for maturity. I've learned that I don't suffer from insanity, I enjoy it. I've learned that we are responsible for what we do, unless we are celebrities. I've learned that artificial intelligence is no match for natural stupidity. I've learned that 99% of the time when something isn't working in your house, one of your kids did it. I've learned that there is a fine line between genius and insanity. I've learned that the people you care most about in life are taken from you too soon and all the less important ones just never go away. And the real pains in the ass are permanent. * * * * * * * * * * got this from my friend erik. thanks man! so very true, well, most of them anyway.

it's their anniversary so okay 36 years ago, in a little chapel somewhere on the east coast (i think in virginia) my mom and dad and two of their friends got together in front of a priest and said their i do's. wasn't a big event, but they've been together ever since. 8 months later, my big bro eric came, alfrancis came a year after that [rip], noel came a year after that, then i came 4 years after that. they've stuck together through all the good and the bad. because of them, i know what love is. to this day they still cap on each other, then giggle. they still play fight, my mom always has to be right, my dad is still chill, letting her have her way. man, i love them so. because of them, i am who i am today. of course i fought them every step of the way, but what daughter dosen't fight with her parents? yes, the mistake likes to fight. heh. i remember the first time my dad told me that, i think i cried. but then my mom told me she wanted me, so i was happy once again. then again, daddy wants me to be the one to give him grandkids, and my mom wants me to have a kick ass wedding. eh, whatcha gonna do? i just hope i'm as lucky as they were to find each other. well, i'm told, my mom was playing hard to get with daddy for a while. maybe that's the key? hmmmm, or perhaps i already met him. *shrug* regardless, today is a day to celibrate. i celibrated with them this weekend. it's my brothers turn to take them out. yay, it's their anniverary. wheeeee!!!!! HAPPY ANNIVERSARY MOMMY & DADDY!!! i love you guys so!! *mwa* *mwa* *mwa* *mwa*

names, names, names i stole this off of yano's blog. you can get it from fun stuff. it's pretty cool. Eileen Joy The name of Eileen Joy creates a restless, creative nature that takes you into many ventures, but does not allow you to see things through to a satisfactory completion. Yours is a versatile, musical, artistic, but independent nature and you must have the freedom to express your creative ideas and abilities to be happy. An urge for independence causes dissatisfaction and frustration in close relationships and you find the "ties that bind" restricting. The qualities of this name would find a more constructive outlet in work that involves high-pressure selling or promotional activities, possibly in community affairs, for it contains a positive, driving power. It is difficult for you to merge with others; although you have quickness of mind, you lack tolerance and can give way to impatience at another's slowness or shortcomings. If you cannot complete your plans when you wish to do so, you could suffer intense moods of depression and extreme sensitivity in the region of the solar plexus, resulting possibly in ulcers or nervous disorders. This name could take you into bitter experiences through impulsive action. You need more stability to find peace of mind, relaxation and happiness in life. interesting huh. both my first names are similar in meaning. i just put it together because after reading it, it was word for word the same. hmmmmmm. wonder if the parentals knew that when they were naming me.

THE FOLLOWING IS A CHINESE GOOD LUCK TANTRA TOTEM. You may not believe in this but the advice is great! Read all the way down, you might discover something new!!! ==================================================== ONE (1) Give people more than they expect and do it cheerfully. TWO (2) Marry a man/woman you love to talk to. As you get older, their conversational skills will be as important as any other. THREE (3) Don't believe all you hear, spend all you have or sleep all you want. FOUR (4) When you say, "I love you", mean it. FIVE (5) When you say, "I'm sorry", look the person in the eye. SIX (6) Be engaged at least six months before you get married. SEVEN (7) Believe in love at first sight. EIGHT (8) Never laugh at anyone's dreams. People who don't have dreams don't have much. NINE (9) Love deeply and passionately. You might get hurt but it's the only way to live life completely. TEN (10) In disagreements, fight fairly. Please no name calling. ELEVEN (11) Don't judge people by their relatives. TWELVE (12) Talk slowly but think quickly. THIRTEEN (13) When someone asks you a question you don't want to answer, smile and ask, "Why do you want to know?" FOURTEEN (14) Remember that great love and great achievements involve great risk... FIFTEEN (15) Say "bless you" when you hear someone sneeze. SIXTEEN (16) When you lose, don't lose the lesson. SEVENTEEN (17) Remember the three R's: Respect for self; Respect for others; Responsibility for all your actions. EIGHTEEN (18) Don't let a little dispute injure a great friendship. NINETEEN (19) When you realize you've made a mistake, take immediate steps to correct it. TWENTY (20) Smile when picking up the phone. The caller will hear it in your voice. TWENTY ONE (21) Spend some time alone.

"Happiness is what happens to us when we try to make someone else happy." i'm really happy right now. =)

random thought i want it to be the best.

random lines [can't get enough] never make the same mistake twice. . . 'cause that shit's played out like a 8 track. romance, is about the possibility of a thing you see, it's about the time between when you meet some fine ass woman and when you first make love to her or when you first ask a woman to marry you and when she says i do. when people who've been together for a long time say the romance is gone uhh um, what they're really saying is they've exhausted the possibility. it's like poetry it's the possiblity of language. jealosy is a sickness let it go and just walk away. i don't need poetry to get women. naw brother, you need a personality. you said it was bad timing and i figured if i asked again maybe you'd say yes and if not that time then maybe the next time till the next time became the right time ahhh, persistence you'd be suprised how far it can get you. it's about reaching your level i'm like a thief in the night you know what i mean? fbi's still on my tail but they can't get me. sometimes i think i'm going to far with you. it's a destiny type thing, baby. true love my ass, man love is what you make and with whom you make it that's it. it ain't supposed to make sense. . . it is, what it is.

random lines [3] hope is a good thing, maybe the best of things and no good thing ever dies. fear can hold you prisoner, hope can set you free. if i didn't care, more than words can say, if i didn't care, would i feel this way, if this isn't love, then why do i thrill and what makes my head go round and round while my heart stands still...

random lines [2] that shit's played out like an 8 track. when that jones come down come down like a muthafucka. this is a destiny type thing, baby. whatcha wanna do? you only get two. . . love is what you make and who you make it with. love, passion, it is, what it is. you always want what you want, when you want it. . . . let me tell you something this here, right now, is all that matters to me. i love you. that's urgent like a muthafucka.

a blues for nina say baby, can i be your slave i've got to admit girl, you're the shit girl and i'm diggin` you like a grave now do they call you daughter to the spinnin post, or or maybe queen of 10,000 moons sister to the distant, yet risin` star is your name yimmy-ya oh hell nah, it`s got to be ocean ooo, is that a smile me put on your face child wide as a field of jasmine and glover talk that talk honey, walk that walk money hound legs that'll spank jehovah shit, who am i? it's not important but they call me brother to the night and right now i'm the blues in your left thigh tryin to become the funk in your right who am I? i'll be whoever you say but right now, i'm the sigh traped hunter blindly pursuing you as my prey and i just wanna give you injections, of sublime erections and get you to dance to my rhythm make you dream archaetypes, of black angels in flight upon wings, of distorted, contorted, metaphoric jism come on slim fuck yo` man, i ain`t worried about him it's you who i wanna step to my scene cause rather than deal with the fallacy of this dry ass reality i rather dance and romance your sweet ass, in a wet dream who am I? well they all call me brother to the night and right now, i'm the blues in your left thigh trying to become the funk in your right is that alright? * * * * * * * * * * * i love this movie, darius is so cool. . . i don't care if he's only a character, he's fresh.

romance, is about the possibility of a thing you see, it's about the time between when you meet some fine ass woman and when you first make love to her or when you first ask a woman to marry you and when she says i do. when people who've been together for a long time say the romance is gone uhh um, what they're really saying is they've exhausted the possibility. . . . . . . . . . . it's like poetry it's the possiblity of language. * * * * * * * * * * i love this movie. any guesses?

the little things are infinitely important -sir arthur conan doyle

got this from a really good friend A good woman is proud of herself. She respects herself and others. She is aware of who she is. She neither seeks definition from the person she is with, nor does she expect them to read her mind. She is quite capable of articulating her needs. A good woman is hopeful. She is strong enough to make all her dreams come true. She knows love, therefore she gives love. She recognizes that her love has a great value and must be reciprocated. If her love is taken for granted, it soon disappears. A good woman has a dash of inspiration and a dabble of endurance. She knows that she will, at times, have to inspire others to reach the potential God gave them. A good woman knows her past, understands her present and moves toward the future. A good woman knows God. She knows that with God the world is her playground, but without God she will just be played. A good woman does not live in fear of the future because of her past. Instead, she understands that her life experiences are merely lessons, meant to bring her closer to self knowledge and unconditional self love. I just sent this to a good woman ............... why don't you? * * * * * * * * * * so true, my friend. *mwa*

serendipity you have to have faith. . . in destiny.

got this from a friend. . . The true measure of compatibility is not the years spent together, but how good you are for each other. Love isn`t about becoming somebody else`s "perfect person." It`s about finding someone who helps you become the best person you can be. Heartbreaks last as long as you want and cut deep as you allow them to go. The challenge is not how to survive heartbreaks but to learn from them. How to be in love: Fall but don`t stumble, be consistent but not too persistent,share and never be unfair, understand and try not to demand, and get hurt but never keep the pain. True love cannot be found where it does not truly exist, nor can it be hidden where it truly does. Love is magic. The more we hide it, the more it shows; the more you suppress it, the more it grows. Never say I love if you don`t care. Never talk about feelings if they aren`t there. Never touch a life if you mean to break a heart. Never look in the eye when you do is lie. The cruelest thing a guy can do to a girl is to let her fall in love when he doesn`t intend to catch her fall. (same for a girl to a guy) It breaks your heart to see the one you love happy with someone else but it`s more painful to know that the one you love is unhappy with you. Love hurts when you break up with someone. It hurts even more when someone breaks up with you. But love hurts the most when the person you love has no idea how you feel. A sad thing about life is that when you meet someone who means a lot to you, only to find out in the end that it was never bound to be and we just have to let go. Love is like a butterfly. The more you chase it, the more it eludes you. But if you just let it fly, it would come to you when you least expect it. Love can make you happy but often times it hurts, but love`s only special when you give it to someone who is worth. So take your time and choose the best. (words by Steph L) * * * * * * * * * * * it's all relative. . .

the bestest friends in the world do any of you have a friend that no matter how far you go, or no matter how much time is spent apart. . . the moment you do get together, it's as if you guys were never apart? that's why i love shannie so much. i headed over to her pad after work today, and i just feel so much better now. she just knows me to daymn well, that's what the problem is. but hey, that's why i love her so daymn much. it's funny, you can give someone advice when they're going through things, but when you're going through a similar situation. . . you can't give yourself the same advice. you always need another party to show you the error of your ways. why is that anyway? arrggghhhhhh, i hate that, i so hate that. but i'm glad that i have someone to point that out to me. i might not have a whole lot of friends, but the ones that i do are the best ever. it's all about quality baby! *snap* now i have too much going on in my head. unanswered questions and all that crap. eh, it'll all come together. . . you'll see. i love her, and i love all my beautiful friends. i might not show it, but i do. anyway, not to get off the subject (like i ever do that), but. . . i would just like to say that since i don't make you people read whatever i have to say, then you do have the option to look elsewhere for your blogging entertainment. i realize that i won't please everyone, and that's really not the point of this. i actually don't care, but hey, why hate. really, what's the point? but, hey. . . to each his own. . . and i have wasted enough time on my sidenote. so back to the subject at hand. i'm so glad that i am surrounded by people who love me, just the way i am. it's the greatest feeling in the world i tell you. gotta love it! so with that said, i shall bid you all adieu. NITE!! *MWA*

thought this was nice To laugh is to risk being a fool. To weep is to risk appearing sentimental. To reach out to another is to risk involvement. To express feelings is to risk exposing your true self. To place your ideas, your dreams, before the crowd Is to risk their loss. To love is to risk not being loved in return. To live is to risk dying. To hope is to risk despair. To try is to risk failure. The person who risks nothing, Does nothing, Has nothing and is nothing. They may avoid suffering and sorrow, But they simply cannot learn, Feel, change, grow, love or live. Risks must be taken because, The greatest hazard in life is to risk nothing. Only a person who risks is free. - Leo Buscaglia * * * * * * * * * * ya know?

molly dog on adopt-a-pet they were showing this dog. . . a black and white pup named molly. i miss molly dog now. she's somewhere up in doggy heaven. i know tootse is with us now. . . but i still miss molly. i grew up with molly, she knew how to wake me up. . . was the first one who greeted me, whether i was coming home from being out and about, from work, school, or coming back from la. i miss her. . . i want her back. . . i wish i had a chance to say good-bye.

the green dog 1. I love you not because of who you are, but because of who I am when I am with you. 2. No man or woman is worth your tears, and the one who is, won't make you cry. 3. Just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to, doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have. 4. A true friend is someone who reaches for your hand and touches your heart. 5. The worst way to miss someone is to be sitting right beside them knowing you can't have them. 6. Never frown, even when you are sad, because you never know who is falling in love with your smile. 7. To the world you may be one person, but to one person you may be the world. 8. Don't waste your time on a man/woman, who isn't willing to waste their time on you. 9. Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right one, so that when we finally meet the! person, we will know how to be grateful. 10. Don't cry because it is over, smile because it happened. 11. There's always going to be people that hurt you so what you have to do is keep on trusting and just be more careful about who you trust next time around. 12. Make yourself a better person and know who you are before you try and know someone else and expect them to know you. fyi. . .this line has been claimed by paul 13. Don't try so hard, the best things come when you least expect them to. REMEMBER: WHATEVER HAPPENS, HAPPENS FOR A REASON. True friends: How many people actually have 8 true friends? Hardly anyone I know ! But some of us have all right friends and good friends!!! You have been Tagged by the Green Dog! ,-._,-. \/)"(\/ (_o_) ruff!!!!!! * * * * * * * * * * got this from shan earlier. . . i so love her.

keep this in mind ladies A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE �one old love she can imagine going back to...and one who reminds her how far she has come... A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ....enough money within her control to move out and rent a place of her own even if she never wants to or needs to... A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ...something perfect to wear if the employer or date of her dreams wants to see her in an hour... A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ..a youth she's content to leave behind... A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ...a past juicy enough that she's looking forward to retelling it in her old age.... A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ...a set of screwdrivers, cordless drill, and a black lace bra... A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ..one friend who always makes her laugh... and one who lets her cry... A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ...a good piece of furniture not previously owned by anyone else in her family... A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ...eight matching plates, wine glasses with stems, and a recipe for a meal that will make her guests feel honored.. A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ...a feeling of control over her destiny... EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW... ..how to fall in love without losing herself... EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW... ..how to quit a job, break up with a lover, and confront a friend without ruining the friendship... EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW... ...when to try harder...and when to walk away... EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW... ...that she can't change the length of her calves, the width of her hips, or the nature of her parents... EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW... ...that her childhood may not have been perfect...but its over... EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW... ...what she would and wouldn't do for love or more... EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW... ..how to live alone... even if she doesn't like it... EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW... ...whom she can trust, whom she can't, and why she shouldn't take it personally... EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW... ..where to go...be it to her best friend's kitchen table...or a charming inn in the woods...when her soul needs soothing... EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW... ....what she can and can't accomplish in a day...a month...and a year... * * * * * * * * * * got this from my girl sandra. . . some of these are so daymn true.

reminisce over you. . . it's funny how time flies, funny how things turn out. i never thought i'd move to la, i thought i was a strictly bay area girl. i was actually planning on moving up to the city. . . who knew. i know i wanted to go somewhere, just never knew where i'd end up. . . but who does? *wonder* i was watching my jac tapes last night. just got #21 (the one i made) the other day (thanks dean!!), and i've had #30 (the retreat i directed), ever since the reunion of that retreat. funny how one changes over the years. what was i thinking?? and the hair?? my dear lord. man, time really changes people. some people don't get affected so much, but man. . . hella different. not just in looks either, man, i thought i was so cool. . . heh, now i know better. whew, no one's seeing that tape! well 30 is okay, but not 21. man! what a difference years make. seriously. i wonder what everyone will be/look like in 10 more years. . . let's see if i make it to my 20 year reunion (i actually made it to 10, man i'm old). it's just funny how everyone was back then, compared to now. years give you experience, and that experience makes you grow. . . i guess. shoot, look at me now. if only i can take that and possibly shoot up a couple of inches. now that would be bomb. interesting. be nice today all. . . no mean or inappropriate april fools. *MWA* "my weakness, is my sweetness" *repeat* 4x

things to keep in mind a good friend told me last night. . . it's not what's wrong with me. . . what's wrong with them???

I guess sometimes insomnia is good. . . interesting conversations are brought about by old friends.

Why? *btw insomnia sucks

here's more. . . couldn't stop cracking up, bet my office mate thinks i've gone mad. The sex was so good that even the neighbors had a cigarette. If you smoke after sex, you're doing it too fast. I don't suffer from insanity, I enjoy every minute of it. If ignorance is bliss, you must be orgasmic. Good girls get fat, bad girls get eaten. Born free... taxed to death. The more people I meet, the more I like my dog. Some people are alive only because it's illegal to kill them. A bartender is just a pharmacist with a limited inventory. A cat almost always blinks when hit in the head with a ball peen hammer. I used to have a handle on life, but it broke. Don't take life too seriously, you won't get out alive. WANTED: Meaningful overnight relationship. If you can read this, I've lost my trailer. You're just jealous because the voices only talk to me. BEER: It's not just for breakfast anymore. I got a gun for my wife, best trade I've ever made. So you're a feminist...Isn't that cute! Anyone can give up smoking, but it takes a real man to face cancer. If: a two-letter word for futility I don't care, I don't have to. Beauty is in the eye of the beer holder. Earth is the insane asylum for the universe. To all you virgins, thanks for nothing. I'm not a complete idiot, some parts are missing. Horn broken, watch for finger. All men are idiots ... I married their king. The more you complain, the longer God lets you live. My kid had sex with your honor student. Earth first...we'll mine the other planets later. Give pizza chants. Don't hit me. My lawyer's in jail. This isn't burger king, you can't have it your way. How can I be overdrawn, I still have checks! If something goes without saying, LET IT! If at first you do succeed, try not to look astonished. Help wanted telepath: you know where to apply Work is for people who don't know how to fish. IRS We've got what it takes to take what you've got. Hard work has a future payoff, laziness pays off now. Life's a buffet... so eat me! I'm just driving this way to piss you off. If you don't like the way I drive, get off the sidewalk. Reality is a crutch for people who can't handle drugs. Missing your cat? Try looking under my tires. I love cats ... dead ones I love cats ... they taste just like chicken Out of my mind. Back in five minutes. Where are we going? And why are we in this handbasket? I want to be like Barbie, that bitch has everything. Keep honking, I'm reloading. Cover me. I'm changing lanes. Prevent inbreeding: ban country music. As long as there are tests, there will be prayer in public schools. Spotted owl taste just like chicken. Hang up and drive. Happiness is a belt-fed weapon. Laugh alone and the world thinks you're an idiot. Snatch a kiss, or vice versa. I don't have to be dead to donate my organ. WARNING! Driver only carries $20.00 in ammunition. This would be really funny if it wasn't happening to me. I have the body of a god... Buddha! I get enough exercise pushing my luck. Auntie Em- Hate you, hate Kansas, taking dog. Dorothy If you don't like the news, go out and make your own. Sometimes I wake up grumpy; other times I let her sleep Guns don't kill people... but they make it real easy. I want to die in my sleep like my grandfather ... Not screaming and yelling like the passengers in his car. Tow-ers will be violated If at first you do succeed, try not to look astonished. Reality is a crutch for people who can't handle drugs. Guns don't kill people, postal workers do. Ask me about microwaving cats for fun and profit. I said "no" to drugs, but they just wouldn't listen. Friends don't let Friends drive Naked. If we aren't supposed to eat animals, why are they made of meat? Lottery: A tax on people who are bad at math. Friends help you move. Real friends help you move bodies. Diplomacy is the art of saying 'Nice doggie!'... till you can find a rock. Sex on television can't hurt you... unless you fall off

so okay, got this off my message board: One liners for the stressed and irritated 1."Okay, okay! I take it back. Unf**k you!!!" 2. "You say I'm a bitch like it's a bad thing?!" 3. "How many times do I have to flush before you go away?" 4. "Well this day was a total waste of make-up" 5. "Well aren't we a Bloody ray of sunshine?" 6. "Don't bother me, I'm living happily ever after." 7. "Do I look like a f**king people's person!?" 8. "This isn't an office. It's HELL with fluorescent lighting" 9. "I started out with nothing & still have most of it left" 10. "I pretend to work, they pretend to pay me" 11. "YOU!!... off my planet!!!" 12. "Therapy is expensive. Popping bubble plastic is cheap. You choose" 13. "Practise random acts of intelligence and senseless acts of self-control" 14. "Errors have been made. Others will be blamed" 15. "And your cry-baby, whiny-assed opinion would be.....?" 16. "I'm not crazy. I've been in a very bad mood for 30 years." 17. "Sarcasm is just one more service I offer." 18. "Whatever kind of look you were going for, you missed" 19. "Do they ever shut up on your planet?" 20. "I'm not your type. I'm not inflatable" 21. "Stress is when you wake up screaming and you realise you haven't gone to sleep yet" 22. "Back off!! You're standing in my aura." 23. "Don't worry. I forgot your name too." 24. "I just want revenge. Is that so wrong?" 25. "I work 45 hours a week to be this poor." 26. "Nice perfume. Must you marinate in it." 27. "Not all men are annoying. Some are dead." 28. "Wait...I'm trying to imagine you with a personality" 29. "Chaos, panic and disorder . . . my work here is done." 30. "Ambivalent? Well yes and no." 31. "You look like shit. Is that the style now?" 32. "Earth is full. Go home." 33. "Aw, did I step on your poor itty bitty ego?" 34. "I'm not tense, just terribly, terribly alert." 35. "A hard-on doesn't count as personal growth." I couldn't stop laughing. . . good shit right there. wheeeeeee!!!! *mwahs*